First_step_thousand_miles
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Day 593 no porn
Day 1 no MO
Daily meditation
Daily cold showers
Temptations are pretty minimal. Can't say they never pop up -- they do as there are random triggers everywhere -- but they're generally pretty low in the scale. When I do entertain a fantasy though that goes beyond normal sex with a regular girl, I do react to it but much, much less that before.
The MOs are strong though, I think the last few MOs were some of the strongest I've ever had (incl when I would use porn). In the first 1-2yrs of using porn my erections would be very strong consistently but I remember by the last few years of it I'd maybe get that rock hard less than 20% of the time...kind of amazing to get back to regular function. I do miss the novelty of porn sometimes as when you just get bored or want some different stimulation, it's there. But the price it exacts is just not worth it, I don't want to wake up at 50 or 60 and realize I wasted my life and have no one that loves me. We press forth, doing the hard thing isn't always fun but it is worth it over the long haul
Day 1 no MO
Daily meditation
Daily cold showers
Temptations are pretty minimal. Can't say they never pop up -- they do as there are random triggers everywhere -- but they're generally pretty low in the scale. When I do entertain a fantasy though that goes beyond normal sex with a regular girl, I do react to it but much, much less that before.
The MOs are strong though, I think the last few MOs were some of the strongest I've ever had (incl when I would use porn). In the first 1-2yrs of using porn my erections would be very strong consistently but I remember by the last few years of it I'd maybe get that rock hard less than 20% of the time...kind of amazing to get back to regular function. I do miss the novelty of porn sometimes as when you just get bored or want some different stimulation, it's there. But the price it exacts is just not worth it, I don't want to wake up at 50 or 60 and realize I wasted my life and have no one that loves me. We press forth, doing the hard thing isn't always fun but it is worth it over the long haul