I hate the thought of masturbation, of "touching myself". I've done it so many times in my life that I feel like I am thoroughly done, that poor penis, it just wants to be left alone, and so I will...
The mind part though, now that's a different story. The human mind is WOW, that's all I can say. It can tap into A LOT of different stuff....
On this recovery journey I am aiming for sobriety, and I mean total sobriety. Sobriety has been a bad word to me, because it sounds like boredom, like no fun, no adventure, like it's not something to look forward to. But I look at it differently now. To me it's CLEAR THINKING that I wish to attain, in everything I do, not only CLARITY in thinking but also CLARITY in NOT thinking, because there are times when it's better not to think. It's like looking into a clear body of water and just absorbing what you see without analyzing it. Being in the CLEAR, that's where I want to be....
The mind moves you to touch yourself, but you are not your mind, you and your mind are actually separate, at least that is what I have concluded through my meditation practices. "Harnessing" the mind, like harnessing a strong stallion, is work, good honest work!