I want to live.
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tay97
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- Feeling good. No constant fear of relapsing with a dumbphone.
- Clicked on a link while browsing something on my laptop and eventually landed on twitter. Got triggered by a random selfie that was recommended to me (even though I have no acc) but immediately shut it off. It's ok. Breathe. You want a lovely wife. Life's good.
(No P)- Feeling good. No constant fear of relapsing with a dumbphone.
- Clicked on a link while browsing something on my laptop and eventually landed on twitter. Got triggered by a random selfie that was recommended to me (even though I have no acc) but immediately shut it off. It's ok. Breathe. You want a lovely wife. Life's good.
tay97
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I will start to fast again for 22-23 hours a day from tomorrow on (OMAD-fasting). I want to lose fat. Last week I started to go to the gym again after 1 whole year of doing nothing because of knee problems.
Thinking about switching to No MO as well to 'unleash' all of my potential.
Thinking about switching to No MO as well to 'unleash' all of my potential.
SmokenMirrors
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Definitely switch to no MO! Congrats on the gym as well, its a great healthy obsession to have!
tay97
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- 3 days pornfree, yes! Small steps, but I feel good. Life is good.
- I dreamt about meeting a nice and lovely girl for a date. I am watching a dating show where two people have a blind first date and it makes me wanna go out and meet people, too.
-Next goal: No PMO 5 days.
(No P)Day
(No MO)- 3 days pornfree, yes! Small steps, but I feel good. Life is good.
- I dreamt about meeting a nice and lovely girl for a date. I am watching a dating show where two people have a blind first date and it makes me wanna go out and meet people, too.
-Next goal: No PMO 5 days.
tay97
Active Member
4 weeks ago I quit sugar because of a bet with my mom. 100 days no sugar = 100 Euro. No more candy, cake, soda, etc. I am only drinking sparkling water and eating good foods, like meat, vegetables and fruits. The first week was truely hell. I had constant headaches. My brain didn't like my new lifestyle but I managed. Now it's so easy, I can't believe it. Managing my sugar addiction that easyly made me come back to this forum and want to beat the porn addiction as well.
So yeah, I don't feel like fasting rn as I am already doing good progress with No sugar + heavy workout every other day + Semen Retention/ No PMO. Maybe in the future.
So yeah, I don't feel like fasting rn as I am already doing good progress with No sugar + heavy workout every other day + Semen Retention/ No PMO. Maybe in the future.
tay97
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I truely don't understand how. But yeah, that's my logic as well. Thank you.
tay97
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- Had an medical appointment this morning and took the train. I was constantly fantasizing about the pretty women I saw. But I kept it cool. In case of a smile or some kind of signaling from a girl I would have flirted for sure, but there were none, that's ok. Woman owe me nothing. I got to look at myself. Good nutrition, good style, good body, good behaviour, good manners. The rest will come. I feel good.
- Also, noticed a cute guy today. I am really interested to see how my sexuality changes while rebooting. Is my bisexuality real? Do I feel still feel attracted to certain type of guys after 'healing' my brain from porn? I am looking forward to find out and I am open to get to know my true inner self. I just want to get rid of all this porn bullshit.
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(No MO)- Had an medical appointment this morning and took the train. I was constantly fantasizing about the pretty women I saw. But I kept it cool. In case of a smile or some kind of signaling from a girl I would have flirted for sure, but there were none, that's ok. Woman owe me nothing. I got to look at myself. Good nutrition, good style, good body, good behaviour, good manners. The rest will come. I feel good.
- Also, noticed a cute guy today. I am really interested to see how my sexuality changes while rebooting. Is my bisexuality real? Do I feel still feel attracted to certain type of guys after 'healing' my brain from porn? I am looking forward to find out and I am open to get to know my true inner self. I just want to get rid of all this porn bullshit.
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tay97
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- Mid but short urges about both genders after waking up. It's good to have a sexual drive. This is healthy. But using artificial stimuli for satisfaction is not healthy. Porn has rotten my brain. It has ruined my relationsships to family, friends and partners. But it's nobody's fault but my own. I am responsible for my health. I will take my life back. Fuck this shit. I hate my past self so much. Gonna hit the gym.
(No P)Day
(No MO)- Mid but short urges about both genders after waking up. It's good to have a sexual drive. This is healthy. But using artificial stimuli for satisfaction is not healthy. Porn has rotten my brain. It has ruined my relationsships to family, friends and partners. But it's nobody's fault but my own. I am responsible for my health. I will take my life back. Fuck this shit. I hate my past self so much. Gonna hit the gym.
tay97
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A couple of years ago, I was on day 30 something and my cousin who I don't see very often said, that I was glowing and looking so energetic. Can't wait.
tay97
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- I feel the pull. Having light thoughts about gay and transwomen. Breathe. It's okay to feel desire for different people. The problem is that I am seeing them as objects to fullfill my needs. I just want to use them. Porn changed my brain. Need to remember the emptiness that I have felt after ONS. I need to heal. After 90 days, after I am more or less free of this addiction, I can be with whomever I want. But for now, just breathe.
- I am also having thoughts again about coming out as bi to my family. It could take away the specialness and the secrecy. A huge burden would fall from me. My brother and my mother would be okay with it. My father definitely not. It's not that I am afraid of him (I am physically stronger). It's just .. I don't like to make myself vulnerable and also, I kept this a secret for 10+ years, like I have been lying to them my whole life. It's always on my mind and I am tired of this secret.
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(No MO)- I feel the pull. Having light thoughts about gay and transwomen. Breathe. It's okay to feel desire for different people. The problem is that I am seeing them as objects to fullfill my needs. I just want to use them. Porn changed my brain. Need to remember the emptiness that I have felt after ONS. I need to heal. After 90 days, after I am more or less free of this addiction, I can be with whomever I want. But for now, just breathe.
- I am also having thoughts again about coming out as bi to my family. It could take away the specialness and the secrecy. A huge burden would fall from me. My brother and my mother would be okay with it. My father definitely not. It's not that I am afraid of him (I am physically stronger). It's just .. I don't like to make myself vulnerable and also, I kept this a secret for 10+ years, like I have been lying to them my whole life. It's always on my mind and I am tired of this secret.
It’s not unusual to feel exaggerated cravings for those you can objectify during withdrawal. Your tastes are probably going to change over the next few months. People often notice that eliminating porn has that effect.Day
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- I feel the pull. Having light thoughts about gay and transwomen. Breathe. It's okay to feel desire for different people. The problem is that I am seeing them as objects to fullfill my needs. I just want to use them. Porn changed my brain. Need to remember the emptiness that I have felt after ONS. I need to heal. After 90 days, after I am more or less free of this addiction, I can be with whomever I want. But for now, just breathe.
- I am also having thoughts again about coming out as bi to my family. It could take away the specialness and the secrecy. A huge burden would fall from me. My brother and my mother would be okay with it. My father definitely not. It's not that I am afraid of him (I am physically stronger). It's just .. I don't like to make myself vulnerable and also, I kept this a secret for 10+ years, like I have been lying to them my whole life. It's always on my mind and I am tired of this secret.
Can you tell your brother or your mother without telling the others? You just need one person that you are honest with.
tay97
Active Member
Day (No PMO)
- I changed my day counter because my goal is to complete 90 days or more of no pmo.
- I was at the lake today. Holy shit. I felt like an animal. Literally every woman was attractive to me. Literally. Young, old, overweight, mothers. My mind was going apeshit but I kept it cool. Women are beautiful, it's okay to acknowledge that. But man my mind... There was one girl with a very, very, very attractive body. When she was coming from the water I went swimming myself and asked her if the water was too cold. She said yeah, to cold for me. I then went to the water. My plan was to make contact and give her some place as I don't want to harass her. I got the impression that she was very reserved and desinterest, even though I caught her looking at me a few times. That's not enough tbh, I want a woman to give me some kind of clear signal. Like go the the water when I go, or seek eye contact and smile or at least ask me if the water was fine after I come back. Idk. Maybe she was too shy. Maybe I'll see her again. But yeah. I am proud of me making the first contact like a true man. Didn't feel nervous. Day 7 benefits. Love it!
- Also, just got my first real job starting in august and I feel so happy. Having some money, moving out, beeing able to invite people to my home. My life truely begins. Can't wait.
- Gonna hit the gym later and start a new workout routine based of @SmokenMirrors workout source. Thanks again!
(No PMO)- I changed my day counter because my goal is to complete 90 days or more of no pmo.
- I was at the lake today. Holy shit. I felt like an animal. Literally every woman was attractive to me. Literally. Young, old, overweight, mothers. My mind was going apeshit but I kept it cool. Women are beautiful, it's okay to acknowledge that. But man my mind... There was one girl with a very, very, very attractive body. When she was coming from the water I went swimming myself and asked her if the water was too cold. She said yeah, to cold for me. I then went to the water. My plan was to make contact and give her some place as I don't want to harass her. I got the impression that she was very reserved and desinterest, even though I caught her looking at me a few times. That's not enough tbh, I want a woman to give me some kind of clear signal. Like go the the water when I go, or seek eye contact and smile or at least ask me if the water was fine after I come back. Idk. Maybe she was too shy. Maybe I'll see her again. But yeah. I am proud of me making the first contact like a true man. Didn't feel nervous. Day 7 benefits. Love it!
- Also, just got my first real job starting in august and I feel so happy. Having some money, moving out, beeing able to invite people to my home. My life truely begins. Can't wait.
- Gonna hit the gym later and start a new workout routine based of @SmokenMirrors workout source. Thanks again!
SmokenMirrors
Well-Known Member
First contact made! That's some Neil Armstrong shit!
Let me know how the workout goes, it's brutal but it seriously builds muscle!
Let me know how the workout goes, it's brutal but it seriously builds muscle!
swimmer97
Active Member
This all sounds great my brother. Very glad for you. Keep killing itDay
- I changed my day counter because my goal is to complete 90 days or more of no pmo.
- I was at the lake today. Holy shit. I felt like an animal. Literally every woman was attractive to me. Literally. Young, old, overweight, mothers. My mind was going apeshit but I kept it cool. Women are beautiful, it's okay to acknowledge that. But man my mind... There was one girl with a very, very, very attractive body. When she was coming from the water I went swimming myself and asked her if the water was too cold. She said yeah, to cold for me. I then went to the water. My plan was to make contact and give her some place as I don't want to harass her. I got the impression that she was very reserved and desinterest, even though I caught her looking at me a few times. That's not enough tbh, I want a woman to give me some kind of clear signal. Like go the the water when I go, or seek eye contact and smile or at least ask me if the water was fine after I come back. Idk. Maybe she was too shy. Maybe I'll see her again. But yeah. I am proud of me making the first contact like a true man. Didn't feel nervous. Day 7 benefits. Love it!
- Also, just got my first real job starting in august and I feel so happy. Having some money, moving out, beeing able to invite people to my home. My life truely begins. Can't wait.
- Gonna hit the gym later and start a new workout routine based of @SmokenMirrors workout source. Thanks again!