Brilliant! I can't even do 20 in one set. I could do it, though, but 15 years ago which is pathetic and embarrassing to say, I need to change this ASAP.
Yes, I'm taking seriously into consideration using porn blockers. I need to find one that doesn't mess with my computer/Internet speed etc. Other than that, I'm down to it. I've been too self-sabotaging, not wanting to use porn blockers because I used to let my addicted self to convince me that I don't need that, I can do it on my own, "If you can't do it on your own, then you can't at all" etc. But it's bullshit.Porn blockers - try Netnanny. Run it across all of your devices. They'll even store the password for you and you have to ask for it back.
Personally I use Qustodio (free version). I dont just block all porn sites, I block youtube, Facebook, insta as well cause I'll start using em as a porn subs. Also, I block all prozy websites and tutorials that explain how to get past porn blockers.
Once I've fortified my devices, I 'future me' the password, send password to myself in the future via email.
Netnanny and qustodio dont affect computer functionality, far as I know.
If you still think you can bypass these blockers easily, then my suggestion is to dump your smartphone, get a brick one, Nokia, and leave your computer at work.
Problem with porn is that it is so easy to access. You got to put stuff in it's way at the start so that in those weak points you cant access it.
As you build your willpower, its power over you lessons. But at the start anything that stops you from easily accessing it is a great help.
My advice is to give it a try
Hey man. Thanks for advice. I'll think about it.Hope you don’t mind my weighing in. I’ve been following your thread for a while and it’s clear your stuck in cycle perpetuated by your thinking patterns.
“I try and I can’t quit, I’m useless.”
“This is so hard, I hate myself.”
“I fucked it again, I’m hopeless.”
You’ve never broken free of it and each cycle gets worse.
This is the same pattern we see in people with depression, and coupled with your drinking, I was worried and I felt I might have something to add.
Everything right now is focused on kicking PMO, kicking the drinking, without dealing with these thoughts. Someone posted earlier in this thread it’s time to start loving yourself instead of putting yourself down and they are not wrong.
Thinking about yourself the way you are can be incredibly damaging. You need to shift your focus. Train yourself to think more positively. People know this instinctively, thats why the natural response it to be positive, to lift people up.
This is not easy to do yourself, and tends to work better with a trained therapist. But there are a couple of things you can try, easiest of which is keeping a journal (I find writing these things down makes them more concrete, and it is something you are already sort of doing).
When you journal think about making these changes. You can either put these things into practice here or keep a separate private journal where you can be completely open and honest with yourself.
-focus on your successes each day. Even the small ones. I’d suggest trying to find three at the end of every day, and they do not have to be porn related.
-DO NOT put yourself down. This has clearly not helped and you’re still stuck here because of it.
-if something goes wrong, address it terms of what you can and cannot control. And what you can do to change it eg. You cannot control your cravings, and you cannot control a relapse that has already happened. You can control what you do next.
-set short term, achievable goals. Again, not related to porn or drinking. I suggest three to start. (Someone mentioned Jordan Peterson who is of course famous for the whole cleaning your room).
If you’re uncertain as to what good any of this could be, I’ll just ask, what can it hurt to try? You lose nothing.
I’ll also add as a caveat, this is by no means a magic bullet that will fix everything, rather a tool that can help you pull yourself up.
I genuinely hope you feel better, and wish you all the best. You’re still fighting, and that is an achievement in itself (not me bullshitting, just a fact).
Insanity is doing the same thing over and over while expecting different results. You just need a shift of perspective and approach.
This is great news @Escapeandnevercomeback. I don't know know anything about those, but from what @forceisstrong2 is saying, there seems to be a good way of doing it, where you can send a password to your better self sometime down the road. That would be sweet!After some consideration, I've decided to try the idea of porn blockers as soon as I can. I can't stay away from this bullshit on my own, it seems. I seriously need to restrict the access to porn.
If you have someone to give the password to it would probably be great. Imagine having to justify why you want the password backThis is great news @Escapeandnevercomeback. I don't know know anything about those, but from what @forceisstrong2 is saying, there seems to be a good way of doing it, where you can send a password to your better self sometime down the road. That would be sweet!
Either way, I hope it works.
Best
As you asked for bluntness some time ago: you are bullshitting yourself. Finding reasons not to do it. This really is no rocket science and nothing that needs extensive research. I have set up Qustodio on all my devices without any problem. I don't notice any change in internet speed (as you worried). And even if it would affect your speed, seriously, fuck it. What's more important, leaving porn behind or to keep spending too much time in front of the computer enjoining full internet speed? Do yourself a favor and set it up NOW!About the porn blockers... You know, I would like something less complicated where I could block some things, set a password and give it to someone or something like that, set a password I can't remember and give it to someone to keep it, I don't want some stuff where I need other people to monitor me and block stuff for me. So I don't know, I have absolutely no experience with porn blockers, I only know a few by names, I will have to do some research on this.
Yes, I want nothing but the truth. There comes a point in life where one needs to be called out for his bullshit. Hearing what I want to hear and sugar-coating this will not help me one bit at this moment.As you asked for bluntness some time ago
you are bullshitting yourself. Finding reasons not to do it.
Maybe you're right man.Have you considered going to the doctor about your mental health? Certain comments you have made, including feeling like an ‘empty vase’, make me think of depression. I’m not sure what part of the world you’re in, but if it’s the UK or the US, there are treatments/therapies doctors can offer for low mood and mental health difficulties. You would probably find it easier to tackle your addiction if you look at your mental health more generally.