my journey, 25, male, PMO since ~11, 100% ED, done with this shit forever, it did enough harm

swimmer97

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Day 283 since 6 minutes (German time)

Overcoming this addiction is way deeper than not looking at P anymore and abstaining urges.

Its literally about changing yourself (to the better). My fetishes were around feeling pleasure in self humiliation. Its important to see whats behind the wall of pure dopamin rush. Learning to have self respect. Learning to think long term. Learning to think sustainable. There is still a lot to learn. One thing is for sure. Only forward. Not looking back.
 

swimmer97

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Day 284

Urgeful night behind me. I think reason for that were seeing triggers on a Boulevard Newspaper. I should really avoid this newspaper. Its the definition of "bad news and sex sells best" instead of good journalism.
 
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swimmer97

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Day 294

Without my vision of where i want to be at some point i would not be at day 294.

When it comes to my pure sex instict, my fetishes and porn are giving me the highest possible arousal.

But this is a self damaging act. I hijack the precious arousal i need have sex with my long term partner.

And sex with my partner is sustainable. It feels also good afterwards. We need to think more sustainable and long term.

Its easier said than done, but its a crucial step.
 
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