the_mountain_goat
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Day 14
I have been quite busy in the last few days! In a very positive way still. Although my personal efforts are to be praised, I’m also surfing on that nice wave of “winter is here”, which here in the Alps means A LOT of cool stuff to do (mostly skiing), which is quite exciting and keeps me occupied and satisfied with life! In other words, out of porn!
Coming back home was cool, I saw a lot of friends and realised I have become really close with many of them (I’ve only been living here for nearly two years). I value that a lot, they are an essential part of life and they bring me a lot of joy, comfort and a feeling of security and belonging. Feeling like I belong is super important to me and that’s not always been easy, especially back in Paris. I’ve realised the big city life was not my thing as much as the big outdoors life! That was hard for my city friends to accept (still is, I feel like an alien with them sometimes!)
The last three days have been filled with two great ski touring adventures. Today was more of a cloudy day, but had some work to do. I went to the swimming pool during lunch, which I hadn’t done in a while, it felt great, although very challenging (which is nice!). I do feel I can add it to my list of things to do when I feel like I’m in a “relapse zone” (i.e. at home working alone during a bad weather day).
I had a wet dream on Monday morning. It doesn’t make me feel ashamed or anything, I feel like it’s simply my body naturally releasing after two weeks. It felt quite healthy. I don’t remember the dream that caused it though. Hope it was nice and not porn related. That’s the only thing that bugs me during a reboot: having porn dreams. It’s like your brain is telling you “you can do what you want but I’ll still show you porn”. I know I’m truly successful in a reboot when I have really nice and fun sex dreams (the type that almost make you feel sad it wasn’t happening in real life when you wake up!) Hopefully that will happen in the coming weeks.
Nothing that worries me in the coming days as they will be quite busy. I’ll have to watch out for when it calms down a little bit. It’s during these sort of decompressing moments that relapses may happen, but not on the horizon yet!
I have been quite busy in the last few days! In a very positive way still. Although my personal efforts are to be praised, I’m also surfing on that nice wave of “winter is here”, which here in the Alps means A LOT of cool stuff to do (mostly skiing), which is quite exciting and keeps me occupied and satisfied with life! In other words, out of porn!
Coming back home was cool, I saw a lot of friends and realised I have become really close with many of them (I’ve only been living here for nearly two years). I value that a lot, they are an essential part of life and they bring me a lot of joy, comfort and a feeling of security and belonging. Feeling like I belong is super important to me and that’s not always been easy, especially back in Paris. I’ve realised the big city life was not my thing as much as the big outdoors life! That was hard for my city friends to accept (still is, I feel like an alien with them sometimes!)
The last three days have been filled with two great ski touring adventures. Today was more of a cloudy day, but had some work to do. I went to the swimming pool during lunch, which I hadn’t done in a while, it felt great, although very challenging (which is nice!). I do feel I can add it to my list of things to do when I feel like I’m in a “relapse zone” (i.e. at home working alone during a bad weather day).
I had a wet dream on Monday morning. It doesn’t make me feel ashamed or anything, I feel like it’s simply my body naturally releasing after two weeks. It felt quite healthy. I don’t remember the dream that caused it though. Hope it was nice and not porn related. That’s the only thing that bugs me during a reboot: having porn dreams. It’s like your brain is telling you “you can do what you want but I’ll still show you porn”. I know I’m truly successful in a reboot when I have really nice and fun sex dreams (the type that almost make you feel sad it wasn’t happening in real life when you wake up!) Hopefully that will happen in the coming weeks.
Nothing that worries me in the coming days as they will be quite busy. I’ll have to watch out for when it calms down a little bit. It’s during these sort of decompressing moments that relapses may happen, but not on the horizon yet!
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