Believe in the Process
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It will pass. Don’t believe those feelings or chart your course by them.
Hunter_
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Day 7
Deep breaths really works for me. Increased level of oxygen enhances the mental clarity. At the time of urge, mind can't able to think straight, it is crowed by all sorts of fantasy forcing us to look into the illusion of happiness, but taking deep breaths helps me to see the whole picture rather than temporary dopamine spike.
Deep breaths really works for me. Increased level of oxygen enhances the mental clarity. At the time of urge, mind can't able to think straight, it is crowed by all sorts of fantasy forcing us to look into the illusion of happiness, but taking deep breaths helps me to see the whole picture rather than temporary dopamine spike.
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Hunter_
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Today I have relapsed again. I have spent less than 2 min in the website but I believe it doesn't matter how much time you spend, every single peek into the filth strengthens the pathway and makes the recovery process more harder.
Coming to relapse part, first it started with YouTube video and then substitute and into porn very rapidly. Deep breath helped me to come out from website faster.
I have noticed from my tracker app that I haven't crossed straight 15 days after April. It doesn't mean I am not trying, I am trying different strategies few works but not everytime. It's just one year since I started this journey and I have seen here people spend years to get out.
I'm not tired yet, I know I have long way to go. Let's do this again and again till I make it!
Coming to relapse part, first it started with YouTube video and then substitute and into porn very rapidly. Deep breath helped me to come out from website faster.
I have noticed from my tracker app that I haven't crossed straight 15 days after April. It doesn't mean I am not trying, I am trying different strategies few works but not everytime. It's just one year since I started this journey and I have seen here people spend years to get out.
I'm not tired yet, I know I have long way to go. Let's do this again and again till I make it!
Hunter_
Active Member
Day 4
Fortunately today, I didn't got any urge at all. I think the main reason for this would be spending less time on my phone(mainly YouTube).
I have planned to start my jogging tomorrow again after a week's gap and It's been a long time since I have done meditation so again will start doing it from tomorrow. It feels good to be focusing on life again.
Fortunately today, I didn't got any urge at all. I think the main reason for this would be spending less time on my phone(mainly YouTube).
I have planned to start my jogging tomorrow again after a week's gap and It's been a long time since I have done meditation so again will start doing it from tomorrow. It feels good to be focusing on life again.
Hunter_
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Day 5
Had a active and fresh 40 min morning jog. Day went as per planned and I believe morning workouts have something to do with making the whole day ahead more productive. Comparing to other non workout days, today, I feel less distracted, more focused and organised.
At around 6 pm while I was scrolling YouTube I came across a triggering thumbnail. Strength of Urges started to increasing with time and in every content I am watching, my brain constantly searching more triggers to break me. To avoid falling in the loop again I choose to stay away from my phone till my urges settled down by taking deep breaths and walking around.
Had a active and fresh 40 min morning jog. Day went as per planned and I believe morning workouts have something to do with making the whole day ahead more productive. Comparing to other non workout days, today, I feel less distracted, more focused and organised.
At around 6 pm while I was scrolling YouTube I came across a triggering thumbnail. Strength of Urges started to increasing with time and in every content I am watching, my brain constantly searching more triggers to break me. To avoid falling in the loop again I choose to stay away from my phone till my urges settled down by taking deep breaths and walking around.
Hunter_
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Today was disaster. I have relapsed twice, once in the the morning and other in evening.
Urge came out of boredom and I gave in very quickly and keep on regretting the whole day doing nothing productive only to watch again porn in evening thinking I will get out of the sadness. But nothing has changed, that sadness, loneliness to deal with the problem myself and the fact that I have to go through this again and again is tiring. But I do know this is an addiction and only thing to focus in the recovery is learning.
Starting fresh again tomorrow.
Urge came out of boredom and I gave in very quickly and keep on regretting the whole day doing nothing productive only to watch again porn in evening thinking I will get out of the sadness. But nothing has changed, that sadness, loneliness to deal with the problem myself and the fact that I have to go through this again and again is tiring. But I do know this is an addiction and only thing to focus in the recovery is learning.
Starting fresh again tomorrow.
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