Believe in the Process

Androg

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It's kind of normal to have a neurochemical low after a slip. Let me know if you want more info about this.
 

Hunter_

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Day 2

Today morning I felt weak, but gradually throughout the day mood started to improve and now I am feeling alive again.
Force yourself to go on a jog, workout or do yoga. Emotion follows action so take action 💪
Will definitely do!
It's kind of normal to have a neurochemical low after a slip. Let me know if you want more info about this.
Is it that normal level of dopamine which obtain from regular activities won't excites us after the relapse session?
 

Androg

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Exercise helps balance brain chemistry. Not sure scientists know exactly why.

I was referring to the dopamine (and dopamine-sensitivity) swings that often follow ejaculation.
 

Hunter_

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Day 3

My feelings are back to normal. Spend 0 min in my mobile on YouTube last two days. 95% I fall into the porn just by getting triggered by watching YouTube videos. Though, I enter YouTube to watch news and sometimes out of boredom, I unknowingly click videos which doesn't add any value in my life.

Now I am replacing my news viewing habit into reading printed newspapers. if I didn't used YouTube maximum times relapse won't have happened.

One day at a time.
 

Brutus

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My feelings are back to normal. Spend 0 min in my mobile on YouTube last two days. 95% I fall into the porn just by getting triggered by watching YouTube videos. Though, I enter YouTube to watch news and sometimes out of boredom, I unknowingly click videos which doesn't add any value in my life.
I feel you there. Most of my relapses occurred because of browsing YouTube as well. To curb this I had to delete the app on my phone and block the website on my PC. It really does help to restrict how you access the website. I can still turn the internet blocker off but doing so gives enough time to ask the question "do I really want to waste the next few hours mindlessly browsing?" I also have an add on for my PC called DF YouTube (distraction free YouTube). It hides all video suggestions and makes the homepage blank. I literally cant scroll endlessly, I have to search for videos manually. It's really helped me with my semi addiction to YouTube.
 

Hunter_

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@Brutus, thanks for sharing brother. Add on you mentioned have a cool feature, will try it!

Day 4

Today was special because I attended my first SPAA online meeting. It was quite an experience. People from various backgrounds shared their struggles being an porn addict and the place where they are now in the journey after they have joined those meetings. I find these meetings helpful so planning to attend those frequently.

One take away from their literature that I want to remember everyday:

“I will do everything in my power
to stay sober, just for today.”
 

Hunter_

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@Androg, yeah true! That's when the real game starts.

Day 6

just reminding myself I'm an porn addict, that if I didn't get an urge today it doesn't mean tomorrow also will be same. Tomorrow is completely different day, just take one day at a time without letting the guard down.
 
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Hunter_

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Day 7

when I think about achieving any significant milestone like 30, 60 days only anxiety is showing up thinking what if i acted out in the middle of the journey.

Yes, having aim and achieving certain days show our progress and motivates to go further above, but to achieve that milestone we need to cross one day at a time. So I need to emphasize myself that I have to focus on next 24 hours. That's it.

Just next 24 hours!
 

Hunter_

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Day 10

I feel stressed today. In a particular work that I am doing, things are going different than I expected. I have a hope that it'll get resolved, even though if it didn't, I need to remind myself there is nothing for me to lose and mental peace is the first priority.
 

Hunter_

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Day 11

Thanks @Blondie, The problem I have discussed yesterday have resolved successfully. I feel happy and grateful.

Nowadays when I think about my previous relapse, I remember the thing Edision once said : "I have not failed. I've just found 1000 ways that won't work."
 
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