Be still and you will see for yourself, Grasshopper. Now, I must go and meet my monk buddies over a keg of cheap beer.fcjl8 said:Will Master Po be the next incarnation of your avatar, LTE??? Do you actually have a head of hair or using the razor??
Much better this evening than mid morning, I was really out of sorts earlier... I don't think I was in any real danger of delving into PMO. That just does not seem like any kind of an option anymore. But, honestly the mood I was in was precisely why I so often sought masturbation before. Kind of an all encompassing frustration bordering on anger, anger with no cause or reason, anger stemming from the frustration. I think the root of all anger is really fear. In hindsight , sitting here on our couch, I realize I was irrationally afraid this morning. Not good as there was no need to be. But, that is the thing about fear isn't it? It is never really serving any purpose... that old adage about fear- false evidence appearing real!
I turned into the fear this morning not away from it with PMO. I did not return to bed and climb under the covers. I did not use any form of medication or mask. Guess what? The day went progressively better and that just kept building and building! Amazing.
See , still learning after all this time!
Interesting thoughts FC. I think that I have the same pattern of behavior, boredom, frustration, anger, etc.