bob
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Working on the computer and I just did a search for some innocuous item and guess what pops up; a cover of a graphic novel (very graphic novel).
Man, that stuff is everywhere. Went a bit further but I recognized this hook that gets you started.
I stopped.
Not because I am strong. Not because I didn't want to look. I stopped because in the past, I haven't stopped. Following that quick peek, I would look for more. "What harm if I have already looked and I didn't PMO." Well I'll tell you. One peek began a search. One search morphed into similar searches. Those searches find other items you didn't think about but trigger a familiar feeling. Additional searches produced added "hot" material that made me think, "hey, I'd like to see... again." Make that jump and I would be off. I wouldn't stopped for quite a while.
Then, depression. "Why did I do that?" "Was that really worth it?" "Sure, the images were a turn on but is that the direction I want for my life?" I wouldn't return to RN for a while either. Embarrassed because of the reset, I would stay away.
Don't do it. Don't go there. Don't think about it even for just a little peek.
It really isn't worth it.
Peace brothers.
Addition to my original post...
This morning the feeling is really strong. This morning I woke from a dream that I had MO'ed and that I was considering going again. Felt bad that it would add 2 more checks to my chart taking it to 8 for the month. I have gone 15 days. At the edge of a record that 4 months ago I didn't think was possible. What a pain in the ass.
I know that Dope is the driving force but its hard to believe that a quick glance and the feelings rush back. Going out the door so it should stop it for now. Report back soon.
Think about me folks. It is now that I feel like the support is so helpful.
Man, that stuff is everywhere. Went a bit further but I recognized this hook that gets you started.
I stopped.
Not because I am strong. Not because I didn't want to look. I stopped because in the past, I haven't stopped. Following that quick peek, I would look for more. "What harm if I have already looked and I didn't PMO." Well I'll tell you. One peek began a search. One search morphed into similar searches. Those searches find other items you didn't think about but trigger a familiar feeling. Additional searches produced added "hot" material that made me think, "hey, I'd like to see... again." Make that jump and I would be off. I wouldn't stopped for quite a while.
Then, depression. "Why did I do that?" "Was that really worth it?" "Sure, the images were a turn on but is that the direction I want for my life?" I wouldn't return to RN for a while either. Embarrassed because of the reset, I would stay away.
Don't do it. Don't go there. Don't think about it even for just a little peek.
It really isn't worth it.
Peace brothers.
Addition to my original post...
This morning the feeling is really strong. This morning I woke from a dream that I had MO'ed and that I was considering going again. Felt bad that it would add 2 more checks to my chart taking it to 8 for the month. I have gone 15 days. At the edge of a record that 4 months ago I didn't think was possible. What a pain in the ass.
I know that Dope is the driving force but its hard to believe that a quick glance and the feelings rush back. Going out the door so it should stop it for now. Report back soon.
Think about me folks. It is now that I feel like the support is so helpful.