Doubts are inevitable when recovering from an addiction, but perhaps, by now, you know ways of coping, so that it doesn’t have to be as bad as you predict. Keep exercising and stay busy. It will get easier.Day 17
Not allowing myself any social media has made a huge difference so far, but now the third weekend is coming and I enter the danger zone.
I need to be prepared for feeling extremely low and depressed, lack of motivation and high amount of self doubts within the next days and maybe weeks.
For years this feels like being at war with myself, first I am totally convinced to never relapse again - then my brain starts rationalizations why a little peek at porn subs might make life easier and there are no superpowers arising from abstinence.
Writing here every day helps me as a reminder to keep pushing through. I want to quit porn forever, this journal is seven years old and there is desperation in many entries. I don’t want to feel that bad ever again, I want to live a porn free life.