Hello Gaz, Mikel and Reboottrap.
I really appreciate your openfeedback. I think this is very helpful.
Before you continue to read: this might be a Little bit thought provocing!
I fully Support that relying on porn as a matter of happiness will not work in life. We will fail.
But sometimes I have to come ask myself - what Comes first: the symptom or the cause and is porn a symptom or a cause. I have identified some weaknesses in life that I really Need to work on. They do definitely Need improvement. When I was a heavy porn user, I did totally ignore them. and this sobriety has helped me to identify them.
I also agree that getting away from porn is a good choice because porn - and especially too much of it - has caused my brain to less think rationally.
I am also not in favor of porn. But I also think that it is not good either to say that porn is totally bad. Bad and good just like loving and hating is always Close together. Sometimes it can even help in a relationship should both Partners want it. So my Goal is to become completely indifferent towards porn. My personal Goal is that porn just does not Play an active role in my life anymore and that I Focus on my Family and on my Job what I love.
But I do not like this "black and White painting"
My personal Goal is that I develop a very healthy life style with a lot of self-discipline. Watching porn every day is not self-discipline! Watching porn on a regular Basis is in fact a huge Problem.
but it is Little bit the same with alcohol: I have reduced my consumption of alcohol to four bottle per months. This is 1.2 litres of beer. Not very much. I think that is very healthy!
Also maybe I can best explain it with the difference between staring and looking at a beautiful women. If I stare - in a pathetic way - at beautiful women, then it is not suitable, but if I look at a beautiful women and acknowledge she is hot, then it should be ok. I just should not fuss about it. Just move on.
So to cut a Long Story short: I am totally on your side, I only think that sometimes trying to see Grey colours instead of just black and White is ok too.
But I also Need to admit that instead of suggesting "there are other Forums" I think different opinions should be discussed openly with inviting somebody to think about other Forums. This goes into the direction of judging. And I thought we are all here to help each other and therefore in case of contradictory opinions, we should discuss them, but not judge them.
In an intellectual discourse, the different sides should always be allowed to be looked at, otherwise it is one-sided. And everything just looking from one angle is dangerous. Pro and cons should always be weighed up.
thank you everyone.