Successful reboot?
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31 days without porn. I do not miss it. It is because I have not looked at it. If you watch porn you want to watch more porn. If you do not watch porn, then your brain does not miss porn. So very easy. Just do not watch it. I am also not watching p Subs anymore. the Problem with porn and its Subs is that too much guilt is coming up.
I am tired of guilt and shame so it is besser to not watch it.
I do admit then I moed one time, looking at a Picture of a dressed woman.
I Keep myself busy and I do what I love at work! that is key!
I am tired of guilt and shame so it is besser to not watch it.
I do admit then I moed one time, looking at a Picture of a dressed woman.
I Keep myself busy and I do what I love at work! that is key!
32 days. no shame. no guilt. no thought about mental help needed. Women appear more interesting than during porn age. The taste even seems to be different.
Doing Things for other People helps too. Last week I cooked a meal for like 6 People. Everyone commented on how awesome it was. That put me in a good mood too.
Porn makes us think we are so important and everything revolves around us. But our first Goal should be to make ourselves remembered in a positive way that we will be remembered for good Things.....
I also do see a pattern now: When I used to watch porn, I would have brain fuck for an hour....and then I worked....In the evening I had cravings and then I just could not resist...I would go to bed too late...
It is time that I just go to bed and think about the day.....if I cannot fall asleep it is because I did not exercice enough.
Doing Things for other People helps too. Last week I cooked a meal for like 6 People. Everyone commented on how awesome it was. That put me in a good mood too.
Porn makes us think we are so important and everything revolves around us. But our first Goal should be to make ourselves remembered in a positive way that we will be remembered for good Things.....
I also do see a pattern now: When I used to watch porn, I would have brain fuck for an hour....and then I worked....In the evening I had cravings and then I just could not resist...I would go to bed too late...
It is time that I just go to bed and think about the day.....if I cannot fall asleep it is because I did not exercice enough.
33 Days.
Yesterday I had a very weird experience and I did not like it. A friend from abroad dragged me to a Strip Club. When I was Young, I would be totally excited about that. Now I just thought it was weird and I never ever want to go to a Strip Club again in my entire life. that friend and I were just sitting there.
But it was a great learning experience as well because I finally understood emotionally what yourbrainonporn is trying to tell us for a Long time: Stripclubs, porn and Hookers are not really about women. That is the Illusion. It is about getting high on Dopamin, followed by some Depression afterwards.
I was really observing myself yesterday and I always noticed how my brain really wanted to get on a high. but since I was in observing mode, I did not have any binge Feelings.
So These are my thoughts:
Watching These Things once in life and going there once in life does not matter but in my case it does matter because I have been there. It is time to say good bye. And the next time I have a weak Moment and want to pmo and mo to Bikini women I Need to tell myself that I Forget about the real life.
I was having an interesting conversation with someone here on this Forum and I also told him that I really feel like I am depleting my energy resources If I am consuming porn, etc....
If we jerk off, then only to real life People. But the best Version is to just not touch our best friend unless it is for washing. It is best to leave it up a woman that loves us and that we love.
Furthermore learning from this experience, I also want to very quickly go back into normal mode and follow what I love doing at work and be there for my Family.
Even though still - I do not understand why I liked Strip Clubs when I was Young. I found Strip Clubs to be worse than porn. and it also seems stupid why waste Money on somebody taking off their clothes if we can get it for free.
My porn Career was as follows: as a 15 year I would watch Bikini pics. at 25 I would watch regular porn. at 27 I would visit some Hookers and at 29 I basically stopped any porn and Hookers. Overall I sometimes would watch at Bikini pics but I realized - yes indeed it took me longer - it seems wrong that a Family dad would look at Bikini pics. I am a dad now and so I just want to leave it.
the reason why I love my dad so much is because I do not think he was a consumer of porn. Maybe once or twice in his life but he always put his Family and his Career Forward. to him Family and Career were most important. He was a straightforward man and this is why I so deeply respect my dad. So I want to be like my dad. In his life, I do not think that porn ever played a role in his life nor addictive Patterns.
I only realized that I had some strange Patterns by the time I was married.
In Marriage we never find a perfect Partner, but what Counts is what we make of it.
I also realized that we enrich our existences if we do Things for other People. Like last week. I cooked a big meal for a couple of People and everyone really like it. As a consequence this made me really happy. In sharp contrast to that, porn does not do anything to us. It temporarily Lifts our mood to some higher state and then afterwards it falls to some lower state.
so to conclude: first Thing: It is important to be honest to ourselves. Second Thing: We do Things for other People. Third Thing: consumption of sexual Stimulation unless with a Partner we fuck our lives up.
Yesterday I had a very weird experience and I did not like it. A friend from abroad dragged me to a Strip Club. When I was Young, I would be totally excited about that. Now I just thought it was weird and I never ever want to go to a Strip Club again in my entire life. that friend and I were just sitting there.
But it was a great learning experience as well because I finally understood emotionally what yourbrainonporn is trying to tell us for a Long time: Stripclubs, porn and Hookers are not really about women. That is the Illusion. It is about getting high on Dopamin, followed by some Depression afterwards.
I was really observing myself yesterday and I always noticed how my brain really wanted to get on a high. but since I was in observing mode, I did not have any binge Feelings.
So These are my thoughts:
Watching These Things once in life and going there once in life does not matter but in my case it does matter because I have been there. It is time to say good bye. And the next time I have a weak Moment and want to pmo and mo to Bikini women I Need to tell myself that I Forget about the real life.
I was having an interesting conversation with someone here on this Forum and I also told him that I really feel like I am depleting my energy resources If I am consuming porn, etc....
If we jerk off, then only to real life People. But the best Version is to just not touch our best friend unless it is for washing. It is best to leave it up a woman that loves us and that we love.
Furthermore learning from this experience, I also want to very quickly go back into normal mode and follow what I love doing at work and be there for my Family.
Even though still - I do not understand why I liked Strip Clubs when I was Young. I found Strip Clubs to be worse than porn. and it also seems stupid why waste Money on somebody taking off their clothes if we can get it for free.
My porn Career was as follows: as a 15 year I would watch Bikini pics. at 25 I would watch regular porn. at 27 I would visit some Hookers and at 29 I basically stopped any porn and Hookers. Overall I sometimes would watch at Bikini pics but I realized - yes indeed it took me longer - it seems wrong that a Family dad would look at Bikini pics. I am a dad now and so I just want to leave it.
the reason why I love my dad so much is because I do not think he was a consumer of porn. Maybe once or twice in his life but he always put his Family and his Career Forward. to him Family and Career were most important. He was a straightforward man and this is why I so deeply respect my dad. So I want to be like my dad. In his life, I do not think that porn ever played a role in his life nor addictive Patterns.
I only realized that I had some strange Patterns by the time I was married.
In Marriage we never find a perfect Partner, but what Counts is what we make of it.
I also realized that we enrich our existences if we do Things for other People. Like last week. I cooked a big meal for a couple of People and everyone really like it. As a consequence this made me really happy. In sharp contrast to that, porn does not do anything to us. It temporarily Lifts our mood to some higher state and then afterwards it falls to some lower state.
so to conclude: first Thing: It is important to be honest to ourselves. Second Thing: We do Things for other People. Third Thing: consumption of sexual Stimulation unless with a Partner we fuck our lives up.
Day 34: It is the novelty effect that made me always watch porn. Anyways That is past. The decision not to watch porn is only a slight Thing in the evening: At midnight just go to bed
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Workwise I am very busy. I want to do Things that are comfortable. Porn used to be a way of procrastination for me....but as a man I want to face Things in life....
nothing more to Report...stay strong everyone.
. Workwise I am very busy. I want to do Things that are comfortable. Porn used to be a way of procrastination for me....but as a man I want to face Things in life....
nothing more to Report...stay strong everyone.
Day35: Yesterday I was busy. I often notice the addictive brain is a very lazy brain. For instance: the trunk of the car used to be a great mess because cleaning up would not be as exciting. so I want to stay firm. no more rationalizing just saying good bye to any form of sexual Stimulation and Focus on Family and Job and MORE SLEEP instead
life seems a Little bit slower. My mental presence is higher. I do notice real life women more clearly. I notice the way they act and behave.....when I watched porn everything got numbed...no thinking.....no it seems I pay Attention to Little Details....yesterday I had massive cravings but I did resist