Successful reboot?
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rebootrapp
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Keep up the good work man.
yes it was a great wake up because in the middle I forgot why I am here. Sometimes wake up calls are needed.
Yesterday I read something totally true: pmo does not fix all Problems
- after reboot Problems also will not go away, but I do notice there is no such a Thing as morning Depression or mental dullness.
I do Meditation the first Thing in the morning and it really does good to me! My mind seems calmer.
Yesterday I read something totally true: pmo does not fix all Problems
- after reboot Problems also will not go away, but I do notice there is no such a Thing as morning Depression or mental dullness. I do Meditation the first Thing in the morning and it really does good to me! My mind seems calmer.
Day 12 - no Reports to declare. I like my work, it makes me happy and I love my Family!
Jerking off with porn Always causes mood swings. Furthermore, I think when I watch porn, the next day my brain seems to not be present. Porn is really brain fuck. It is a high Price for ten minutes of fun. It is quite ironic because the orgasm itself is completely always the same with women with just myself or with porn. our mind is playing games with us!
Jerking off with porn Always causes mood swings. Furthermore, I think when I watch porn, the next day my brain seems to not be present. Porn is really brain fuck. It is a high Price for ten minutes of fun. It is quite ironic because the orgasm itself is completely always the same with women with just myself or with porn. our mind is playing games with us!
day 15- Things are stable. went for dinner with Family. slept early! did running the previous day. did not even think about the p. issues. I rarely think about p. anyways unless I relapsed in the past. But porn does not preoccupy my mind anymore. I just know when it did preoccupy my mind it was quite nasty sometimes because it kept sticking there....porn also leads to quite unrational thinking....porn itself is a big Booster of dopamine but the side effects are too much. Furthermore just relying on porn and being in a relationship is like cheating on yourself. Why would I be in a relationship if I prefer porn.
Day 16 - Things are stable. Did not spend a Money thinking about p. I think the years of p. have had some effect on me! I am very visual. But sexuality is more about two persons sharing something intimate. P. is a one way street and quite time-consuming. There is also one weird Thing about relapses. There is no such Thing as one relapse. If I relapsed in the past, I relapsed at least twice in a row. But now I want to think more about a life after porn. This sharing part of intimacy.
Hey mate, I'm the same. watching porn for 10 years 'taught' me sex is 'supposed' to be like. Now I see it's about love and intimacy with another person, not just about sensation and orgasm. I've read some interesting articles about 'tantra', which talks about being present in the moment during sex, focusing on breathing, and things like that. I have to unlearn everything I learned as a kid in the school playground and from movies and TV adverts, and relearn everything there is to know about 'real' sex. Reading and learning as much as we can is the way forward!
Day 18 - Hey Gazz, thanks for your entry. Can you recommend some article.
In life with porn I never thought so much about the value of sex in relationships. Porn really decrease the ability to think logically I find. I want to learn intimacy, now that I have stopped porn I think I am less horny.
I have had no issues regarding reboot.
In life with porn I never thought so much about the value of sex in relationships. Porn really decrease the ability to think logically I find. I want to learn intimacy, now that I have stopped porn I think I am less horny.
I have had no issues regarding reboot.
Day 21: a friend wanted me to take him to a brothel. When I was Young, I would have directly taken him there. But now it does not seem appropriate anymore. He asked me some questions about it so I went and had a look at it, but I decided checking out for a friend brothel pages is like watching porn so in the end I did not continue it. Actually whether it is porn or prostitutes, it does not deal with reality. But my Goal is reality. So of Course I will not go there and I already told him that. I have sworn to myself that I will never ever cheat on my Partner and so I never will. I do know some People cheat on their Partners but I find being a real man means to me sticking to my Partner. I think faithfulness is better than cheating. Not only because of the risk of contracting some stds and passing it on to the Partner, but the entire concept: Why would I marry if I then want to cheat.
I actually do know of some People - I really believe them - they never watched porn in their life - they only said they did watch it very Little but they said it did not interest them - they seem to be more balanced. The Problem about porn is that it depletes our energy Levels. But I told my friend already anyways that I am not going to a brothel anymore and I am happy about that decision.
But our mind is really playing games with us: How this thought about prostitutes made my brain into craving mode again.....so once again, reboottrap was right again: There is no such a Thing as a one time relapses. We cannot Control addiction. This will fail. and this is why once again we Need to be humble about addiction and do recognize that it will always be there....This morning I read another article about cravings. We just Need to learn to accept them. If they come, we have to let them pass
One Thing that I have learned is that without porn I do not feel any shame, I do not feel any guilt, I am more concentrated and I can look People into their eyes. With porn, my brain seems to be racing in first gear instead of shifting into fourth gear and just enjoying to cruise....
Starting from Friday I will seek some mental counseling - even though I do admit I have my expectations low....I did five years ago talk to some counsellor about it...he said there is nothing wrong about watching porn....yes it is true but he did not get the entire part.....so some People do not even understand this stuff....
I actually do know of some People - I really believe them - they never watched porn in their life - they only said they did watch it very Little but they said it did not interest them - they seem to be more balanced. The Problem about porn is that it depletes our energy Levels. But I told my friend already anyways that I am not going to a brothel anymore and I am happy about that decision.
But our mind is really playing games with us: How this thought about prostitutes made my brain into craving mode again.....so once again, reboottrap was right again: There is no such a Thing as a one time relapses. We cannot Control addiction. This will fail. and this is why once again we Need to be humble about addiction and do recognize that it will always be there....This morning I read another article about cravings. We just Need to learn to accept them. If they come, we have to let them pass
One Thing that I have learned is that without porn I do not feel any shame, I do not feel any guilt, I am more concentrated and I can look People into their eyes. With porn, my brain seems to be racing in first gear instead of shifting into fourth gear and just enjoying to cruise....
Starting from Friday I will seek some mental counseling - even though I do admit I have my expectations low....I did five years ago talk to some counsellor about it...he said there is nothing wrong about watching porn....yes it is true but he did not get the entire part.....so some People do not even understand this stuff....
Day 22: we all know we can survive without porn. It is all a question of being used to something. It is about Habits and changing them.
What I want to improve is not to rely on external Stimulants anymore and just use my own fantasies. All of my life I have been accustomed to relying on external Stimulants.
At the Moment I cannot have sex with my Partner for some health reasons but during this time I feel like I am exploding. I would like to release this energy. But releasing this energy in MO leads to depletion so I do not want to do it.
But I do know now that sex is quite a strong force. Yesterday I wanted to pmo but then I decided wait until the next morning and just sleep. so I just slept....
I still find that I am extremely visual, I would like to Change that. This is what I find most difficult, but that is why probably Meditation can be helpful because it allows to sense different parts of the Body.
What I want to improve is not to rely on external Stimulants anymore and just use my own fantasies. All of my life I have been accustomed to relying on external Stimulants.
At the Moment I cannot have sex with my Partner for some health reasons but during this time I feel like I am exploding. I would like to release this energy. But releasing this energy in MO leads to depletion so I do not want to do it.
But I do know now that sex is quite a strong force. Yesterday I wanted to pmo but then I decided wait until the next morning and just sleep. so I just slept....
I still find that I am extremely visual, I would like to Change that. This is what I find most difficult, but that is why probably Meditation can be helpful because it allows to sense different parts of the Body.
I want to learn to totally let go in relationships. I want to live out this demon in me. I have a wild side to me and I want to apply this wild side to relationships. I used to do it to porn and Hookers, but this is the past. I have a Partner now and I am married, so I want to do this within the realms of a relationship. Weird how our brain is sometimes.