Actually for me, porn was kind of a reward to me. if I worked hard, or if I did something good at work, I treated myself to porn. For me, I do not know if I am ever capable of normal porn usage again. But I think whether still addicted or not, this is not the question to be asked. The question that I want to ask myself is whether I want to achieve my goal in real life or whether I want to end up jerking off again after I run into the slightest problem. Life without porn is somehow more exciting anyways. In the age of porn I did not even realize whether women were hot or not because my brain was so busy dealing with brain fog. Now when there are good looking women, I do realize. I also do not just want to think with my penis anymore, actually using the brain sometimes is useful. Last but not least,I want to focus more on male stuff in life, such as building a lasting career, living in a nice house, etc. If I focus on that, I think I will act more like a male. For me, this entire thing is to act and represent more male values. My education was way too "female", and so I want to make sure I teach my male kids in a male way. Of course when I was young my brain did not think like that, I was frustrated in the beginning that I did not get any women and also that I was denied most girlfriends, then I just turned to porn and prostitutes. But since I notice myself entering complaining pussy mode this is also not good. I just want to face life as it is.
So actually my higher goal is that pornography and its associated value become zero value to my life so that I just do not care about it anymore. I do admit I want to end up very rich and I have a plan of how to achieve it. But now I need to follow it step by step. Same with quitting this addiction: I have to be prepared it is rough but once I learn how to ride rough periods, it will still be tough, but I will always know that there is an end to everything. Last but not least, I love my children and this is why I want to live very healthy for my children. If my children thought that their dad is a loser, this is personally my biggest fear in life, so I will make everything possible so that my children will always deeply respect me. That is my highest goal. If I achieve that, I will be a very happy man that is in peace with himself.
Stay strong everybody, jerking off is not worth compared to a beautiful life that is self-determined.