PF58
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Last night I watched and downloaded porn. I'm a guest in someone's home and that may be part of the reason that I didn't masturbate. This morning I decided that I didn't need to masturbate to orgasm before getting rid of it. I broke the addictive cycle by not following through with my usual ritual! I'm still reeling from that decision but it feels good on some level. The emotions I'm feeling now are sadness, confusion and despair. But there is also a glimmer of hope which I hope to keep nurturing until it is a blaze of glory. I KNOW that one day I will overcome but it has been a long time coming.
Today I begin to re-focus my energy and attention towards music. There are two things which I think can really aid my recovery and music is one of them. Connection is the other. I'm committing to playing the guitar, playing the piano or singing for a minimum of a half an hour a day. I also commit to speaking to at least 5 people a day. I want and need to break the pattern of isolation which has keep me on the not-so-merry-go-round of addiction!
Recently I started getting into Pinterest after I figured out that there was more to it than pics of purses and shoes! I started collecting quotes related to recovery and am thinking that you might find some inspiration here. https://www.pinterest.com/dahveed7/recovery
Today I begin to re-focus my energy and attention towards music. There are two things which I think can really aid my recovery and music is one of them. Connection is the other. I'm committing to playing the guitar, playing the piano or singing for a minimum of a half an hour a day. I also commit to speaking to at least 5 people a day. I want and need to break the pattern of isolation which has keep me on the not-so-merry-go-round of addiction!
Recently I started getting into Pinterest after I figured out that there was more to it than pics of purses and shoes! I started collecting quotes related to recovery and am thinking that you might find some inspiration here. https://www.pinterest.com/dahveed7/recovery