My progress timeline
May discovery of the woman I love
Early May aggressive meetup with people to discover their life goals and purpose and meaning in life
Mid May Effort to start my engine (failed)
Late May Meeting and falling in love with her
Early June Extreme clarity, Anxiety, hyper mentality, super alertness, mania
Mid June Losing her
Late June Sick, extreme depression, suicidal
Late June Giving up, regressing to past behavior
Early July Discovering Reboot
Early July Deletion of collection, embarking on Journey
Mid July Developing goals, focus and accountability. Understanding mindset and inner critic. Understanding the value of effort. Discovering the need to love myself. Understanding the benefits of helping others. The importance of generating energy
Mid July Career counseling
Mid July Career course
Late July Insight into PMO, realizing the PMO price, discovering empathy, gradual gaining of self confidence, discovering my life choices were rooted in my negativity. Learning to Let go
Early August Focus on volunteering. But generally depressed for unclear reasons (fearful of failure?)
Mid August Coming clean with her. Discovering the importance of truth, need for inner strength and joy of support of others
Mid August Strong Anger within. Determined resolve never to base life decisions on negativity again. Henceforth and forever, I will follow her route of determined effort, supreme positivity and optimism.
Mid August Clarity that love and happiness are internally generated. Thus we must live fully and pursue sincerely our goals and beliefs. Only in full truth can one be fully liberated from oneself, and begin to live freely.
Meaningful books for me:
Mindset ? Carol Dwerk
Gorilla Mindset ? Mike Cernovich
The Road to Character - David Brooks
Men Are from Mars, Women Are from Venus - john grey
What I Talk About When I Talk About Running - Haruki Murakami
Big Magic - Elizebert Gilbert
Man's Search for Meaning - Viktor Frankl
The Four Agreements - by Don Miguel Ruiz
The Way Of The Superior Man ? David Deida