TakeActionNow
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Background.
I slipped last monday and tuesday.
I ended up being massively depressed on last Thursday
Then I slipped again this thursday.
I am clear of the sequence now. I pray I will not slip again in the future. The price is very high.
The solution is get the fuck out of the house !!!
This time I was watching Saturday and Sunday.
True enough, depression hit me massively in the form of low self esteem on Sat.
Even though I was in the company of kind hearted new friends, with a long 1:1 session, I cannot help but fall into myself.
Conclusion :
Stop being so self centered and take interest in people and their interests !!!
BE ENGAGED ! LIVE THE NOW !
On Sunday the feeling was one of negative, not good enough and not creative or with ideas
I was at a nerdy meetup and was wondering how others are so cheerful and creative with jokes.
Then i went to a improv session and could not get myself to come up with jokes, all the time being extremely concerned i'm not good enough and my ideas are not good enough.
When did i become so unconfident and placed myself so low among others ???
Went to play softball and frisbee later.
During softball I kept telling myself : i am good, i am good, i am good....
I hit a couple of good shots, caught a good ball and ran well inspite of a broken pair of boots.
At frisbee, after scoring 4, i kept telling myself : 1 more, 1 more, 1 more...
and i did.
Conclusion :
a. When depression hits, I can either Dwell on it or Deny it.
DENY THE FUCKER !
b. We only see what we focus on. If i focus on the negatives, i only see the worst.
When i focus on effort and good, i only see success.
I AM SUCCESSFUL !!!
Bottom line:
My quality of life depends not on what my thoughts or emotions are
but what state I CHOOSE myself to be in.
I choose STRENGTH
I choose PURPOSE
I deny weakness
I deny lathergy
I CHOOSE LIFE !!!
Life is about DOING DOING DOING
Stop ruminating. Keep doing. Keep achieving !
I slipped last monday and tuesday.
I ended up being massively depressed on last Thursday
Then I slipped again this thursday.
I am clear of the sequence now. I pray I will not slip again in the future. The price is very high.
The solution is get the fuck out of the house !!!
This time I was watching Saturday and Sunday.
True enough, depression hit me massively in the form of low self esteem on Sat.
Even though I was in the company of kind hearted new friends, with a long 1:1 session, I cannot help but fall into myself.
Conclusion :
Stop being so self centered and take interest in people and their interests !!!
BE ENGAGED ! LIVE THE NOW !
On Sunday the feeling was one of negative, not good enough and not creative or with ideas
I was at a nerdy meetup and was wondering how others are so cheerful and creative with jokes.
Then i went to a improv session and could not get myself to come up with jokes, all the time being extremely concerned i'm not good enough and my ideas are not good enough.
When did i become so unconfident and placed myself so low among others ???
Went to play softball and frisbee later.
During softball I kept telling myself : i am good, i am good, i am good....
I hit a couple of good shots, caught a good ball and ran well inspite of a broken pair of boots.
At frisbee, after scoring 4, i kept telling myself : 1 more, 1 more, 1 more...
and i did.
Conclusion :
a. When depression hits, I can either Dwell on it or Deny it.
DENY THE FUCKER !
b. We only see what we focus on. If i focus on the negatives, i only see the worst.
When i focus on effort and good, i only see success.
I AM SUCCESSFUL !!!
Bottom line:
My quality of life depends not on what my thoughts or emotions are
but what state I CHOOSE myself to be in.
I choose STRENGTH
I choose PURPOSE
I deny weakness
I deny lathergy
I CHOOSE LIFE !!!
Life is about DOING DOING DOING
Stop ruminating. Keep doing. Keep achieving !