Thanks Sanders, your reply really means a lot.
Reflection
Prior to my relapse , I saw it coming. I mean the signs were there, I wasn't checking in regularly, I was stumbling forward. I stopped having my devotionals and prayers which was a big help to me. And I stopped relying on the power of the community. I think, I lost focus on why I was doing it in the first place, what quitting meant to me and how much it was a disease. I began only at not breaking my challenge while stumbling forward.
If there's one thing I'm taking off from this relapse is that, your relationship with God and the community is very important, infact it's everything. God gives you the power to overcome daily, something we can't do for ourselves and the community reminds us of the evils of our disease and why we need to keep pushing back!
Resolution
Well, I can't promise to follow these following guidelines to the detail but, I know now what I must do now. I need to do the following
1. Daily check-ins
2. Daily devotional and prayers
3. Rushing to the community to seek support when I'm in this trigger conditions HALT ( Hungry, Angry, Lonely, Tired)
4. Daily Jogging and exercise to keep the blood flowing, not sure how this helps though... Lol
5. Capping my masturbation to only once a week
6. Putting in some off times with my phone - No data connection /social media between the hours of
? 11am - 1pm
? 4pm - 7pm ( with the exception of when I do graphic designs or blogging)
? 12am - 5pm (with the exceptions of Saturdays when I do night subs for downloads)
Even though it doesn't fully solve the problems, at least there's a bit of focus and danger awareness plus I think it's going to be a good thing for my eyes.
I'd use these off times in No. 6 to do more creative things like reading, drawing, playing the guitar.
And so I begin my 90 day challenge again, to fight against and gain freedom from pornography and compulsive masturbation.
Pushing back!
Chris.