Hi Mr S,
For me ?failing better? is taking something from each relapse - identifying a learning, something to work on and strive to improve for next time - closing a loophole if you will. Constantly improving. It could be the identification of an emotional trigger, or an enhancement of the practical elements of your plan. As part of this process, perhaps documenting these learnings so they are not lost (maybe here?). Share them with others who can perhaps relate to them - building on them, or taking a learning for themself (perhaps something you?ve noticed in yourself that they haven?t detected in themselves, but you help them see).
If I was to offer an observation regarding your approach (hopefully I have your permission or forgiveness), you seem to be stuck in a bit of a cycle in terms of your dialogue here - you come with humility and determination (although the latter appears to be often undermined by negative self talk), you hang around for a while and have some good exchanges with the guys which we appreciate (you are a popular guy here in case you didn?t know), you give encouragement (but usually alongside more negative self talk or self deprecating humour about yourself) and then you go off radar for a while as you experience a tough period and relapse. The cycle then starts again. Other than the chat we one had about the comfy chair, and understanding a little bit about some of the pressures that you are dealing with, I never feel I understand what happened with the relapse, what your learnings were from that particular slip, how you are improving for next time. What I don?t know is if you are identifying these and choosing not to share them (which is completely fine) or if you?re just skipping that step and missing those learnings completely in which case you are perhaps just failing, rather than ?failing better?. I hope this makes sense and it is received with the positive intent that I wrote it. Take care my friend, and let me know what you think.