Not at all. I understood what you meant to say.I hope my comments weren't seen as a dismissing of this need for human connection and touch
I felt very lonely yesterday. But I allowed for the feeling to arise and to be integrated. While it might be a "negative" emotions. It is "pure" and "valid" emotion that is there for a reason. I am grateful for this.
I am very grateful that I get to play this reboot game as long as it takes until I get it.
I ended up sending SMS to 2 people I know. Both replied practically immediately as I asked to go for a walk. I went for a walk today with a friend. It felt very good.
So there is this dichotomy between being alone and being in company. But I feel like. We need to do both. Like being happy on my own + appreciate the company. So I was not running away from loneliness by going for a walk with a friend. As there is a real need to be in company.
So loneliness can be a great teacher. I never valued human connections. But now I am starting to.
What is changing for me is that my whole System of Beliefs - Values and Attitudes is shifting. What I used to value I don't anymore. And existing values are being changed.
I don't need to be around people all the time. But I do need to be around people some of the time.
What is changing is also my attitude. In my view this Reboot is not about staying away from P. It is about Rebooting/Resetting/Re-evaluating Values, Beliefs and Attitudes together with the re-evaluations of Needs and Desires.
As in my study of psychology. To change my life the biggest cost/benefit is for me to change my belief system and my system of perceptions. How do I see myself? How do I see the world? What do I believe to be true? Just working on changing this...I can change my entire life.
Wish everyone well