34 days no PMO and 20 days hardmode.
Lust and horniness is getting easier to manage. This mindfulness++ is working out.
I hold space for lust and horniness. Observe. But at the same time I also intend for my sexual energies to be aligned with my authentic innate sexuality. I intend for my sexual energies to be mixing with the heart center. I intend for my sexual energies to be contained inside me.
So looks like this is it. Now just have to wait for the broken bone to mend.
Much love
EW
I am wondering. Can a single guy without a loving partner and pretty unloving infant/early childhood years clear all this sexual disfunction?
Yes. But this is playing the game on hard-mode. Good.
I guess I'll change hard mode to smart mode. Smart mode reboot.
I'll up my psychology game a little bit more as I am doing. I am also doing some multi-dimensional work that I don't write about as I feel like psychology is a good start already.
It all boils down to my perceptions and beliefs. How do I see myself. How do I see Ego. What do I believe. Sense of identity.
I came across this idea. That Anger is addicting because it masks fear. When you are in anger you are not feeling fear.
This made me think. Maybe Lust is about masking loneliness, disconnection. When we zone out with P. Go into the sub-space of P we are not feeling loneliness. Not feeling disconnection.
I'll meditate on this. This P addiction is proving to be a great teacher. Gets me to level up quite a lot. Clean up my childhood. Level up my psychology game. Also level up my multi-dimensional understanding of how the holographic universe works. Etc.
Can't complain. I got work to do.
Much love
EW
Hey man,I am wondering. Can a single guy without a loving partner and pretty unloving infant/early childhood years clear all this sexual disfunction?
Yes. But this is playing the game on hard-mode. Good.
I guess I'll change hard mode to smart mode. Smart mode reboot.
I'll up my psychology game a little bit more as I am doing. I am also doing some multi-dimensional work that I don't write about as I feel like psychology is a good start already.
It all boils down to my perceptions and beliefs. How do I see myself. How do I see Ego. What do I believe. Sense of identity.
I came across this idea. That Anger is addicting because it masks fear. When you are in anger you are not feeling fear.
This made me think. Maybe Lust is about masking loneliness, disconnection. When we zone out with P. Go into the sub-space of P we are not feeling loneliness. Not feeling disconnection.
I'll meditate on this. This P addiction is proving to be a great teacher. Gets me to level up quite a lot. Clean up my childhood. Level up my psychology game. Also level up my multi-dimensional understanding of how the holographic universe works. Etc.
Can't complain. I got work to do.
Much love
EW
I'm glad you got something out of it. I certainly found it helpful in being able to articulate & understand some of my own needs.I watched the video @Orbiter. Thanks for posting. It resonates. Again self-esteem comes up. I'll work on it.