Escapeandnevercomeback
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Day 2
Muthaphuk porn!
If I don't do it this time, it's only my fault. Excuses don't exist.
Muthaphuk porn!
If I don't do it this time, it's only my fault. Excuses don't exist.
The reason why my longer streaks didn't last was that I chose the path of least resilience. I kept finding excuses like I have to also quit drinking and quitting two addictions at once is too hard, I am lonely, I'm sexually frustrated, I have no coping skills etc. so I could keep porn in my life somehow. Deep down inside me I was not completely determined to abandon it. And after having a mentality like this, I found a way to make mistakes. Who gives a fuck that it's hard? If you have to do it, you do it. Of course, quitting porn and alcohol at the same time is difficult, but who gives a fuck? If you want to do it, you find a way to do it. Excuses hold you down.Hypofrontality (brain-fog) is just a concept, the addictive loop is just a concept... Sure, there's real chemicals involved, there's real habit-loops to which we succumb, but it takes just one thought to change your life.
I'm with EW in what he said above, challenge your belief-systems, like seriously. I like the anger you're displaying, because that can be the crucible for change.
Believe you can change, know you can, always hold that hope for yourself- no matter how many times you have to pick yourself up.
Each time is just another opportunity to try something different, see what works, what doesn't- go deeper, challenge how you think about yourself, are you grateful (and if so, for what?), do you love yourself? etc...
Look up (old journal, new journal) all your lengthiest streaks (3 weeks or more), and see what you were doing that worked, or what eventually tripped you up... refocus, rework your plan, and save yourself.
Hell yeah! Motherfuck porn!Your will is stronger than your brain. Give it the middle finger!
Some time ago I even had a mild panic attack in the train.
If the brain got trained to ask for the pleasure on day 7, it can also be trained not to get it.
Of course. Ignoring the urges is always way better than fighting them.Same with an urge, just breathe through the feelings of anxiety while not responding to them, and they'll go away (sometimes in waves).
Hell yeah, man! Of course! Thanks!Day 9, nice man. Almost to double digits.