Hey, that's sounds great!Day 117 clean.
Day 2 no video games.
Day 2 controlled social media use.
The goal for today is a porn-free day and a porn substitute free day. I won't touch my dick unless in the shower and peeing. This strategy has taken me so far.
The goal for today is also to not play videos games on my phone AT ALL.
Today I set the social media limit on my phone to 10 minutes. So that means I've got 10 minutes to spend on apps like YouTube, Instagram, Facebook and then I'm locked out. If I go over this limit then I'm not achieving my goal.
Now, regarding my progress in this reboot. It was great to spend time with the girl the other night.
To my surprise it wasn't as easy as I would have expected to get erect and to stay erect. It also took ages for me to reach orgasm, or at least ages in terms of what I used to do when watching porn.
I went 115 days no PMO no MO, with morning wood most mornings and spontaneous erections at any sign of sexual thought, I figured I'd basically explode the moment someone touched my dick haha.
I also didn't feel "turned on" at all in the way watching porn would turn me on and get me horny. I'm more sensitised to visual stimulation than someone actually stimulating me physically I guess.
So I suspect I'm mostly rebooted and I have healed a lot but I'm not yet really rewired and I can still improve.
In terms of pure pleasure, masturbating to porn on my own used to feel "better". I guess it's not really surprising because I was death-gripping my dick while flooding my brain with supernormal stimuli. Also, I suspect real life sexual experiences will feel better and better because I still need to rewire. I've probably got thousands of MO/PMO sessions which have condition me to my own hand and way of doing things haha.
Having said that, my dick worked and my brain worked in the sense that it got me to the point where I could enjoy a moment of intimacy.
I'm relearning what healthy sexuality and sex is about. I'm focused on my dick and how things felt for me because they're tangible markers of my progress but really the evening was a complete success. I felt comfortable with the girl, we were constantly communicating what felt good and trying to figure out what we should be doing.
I think you have very good insights about rewiring and rebooting.
Keep up the progress, from now on is only improvement!