Day 335
@Ezel:
Thanks Ezel! Let's keep fighting brother. To hell with that shit!
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Well I orgasmed last night lol. The Lady was gone Friday and Saturday and when she came back last night it was game on. Usually I feel kind of bad when I accidently slip like this, but to be honest, I didn't really care this time. I was so in the moment, I kind of forgot I can't do the speed I usually do without going all the way, thus, I went too far. But isn't this the whole point, to live and be in the moment with your partner?
I can say for sure that I'm definitely further along on my recovery this time than when I was four years ago. I mentioned yesterday that even 12 or 14 months out last time I still had mini flatlines, but this time, I'm alreadly at that stage. I owe this change to the fact that I've eliminated all extra sexual digital content from my life, aka, porn substitutes. Last time that was not the case, I obviously didn't masturbate to anything, but I was still firing and using those same old pathways in my brain when purposely looking at random pictures or watching movies, which inevitably slowed down my recovery.
Moral of the story: if you find yourself lusting after something that isn't even real, step back and engage with the real world. No you didn't look at porn (good job for you!) but please know you're slowing down your progress.
Have a good porn-free Sunday everyone!