It ends here.

[downhillfromhere]

Day 75

 

[Blondie]

I like that number, it looks nice

 

[downhillfromhere]

I like it too! Thanks @Blondie

 

[downhillfromhere]

Day 76

 

[downhillfromhere]

Day 77

 

[searching4good]

Keep knocking down those days @downhillfromhere - it's an inspiration how you're fighting this!

 

[downhillfromhere]

Thanks @searching4good, appreciate it!

 

[Blondie]

Day 77, another day another number.

Have a good one @downhillfromhere.

 

[downhillfromhere]

Thanks @Blondie! Hope you’re having a great weekend!

I don’t really have much to update these days. I had a very sudden situation of looking up substitutes a couple of days ago - but I think I’m okay now. I’m not going to freak out over the fact that it happened, but of course I have to be wary of it happening again. Right now I don’t have a habit of looking at something like that at all, so in that sense I feel pretty secure that I’m in a good place.

I talked about booking a treatment for depression and anxiety, and it’s happening already this week. It’s a pretty drastic measure for someone who isn’t extremely depressed or suicidal, but I think it could help me get to the place I want to be. I’m doing some therapy in relation to the treatment, and focusing on challenging myself socially in the days and weeks ahead.

Hope everyone is enjoying their weekend, there’s a lot of great stuff in life worth doing. There’s so much to explore and learn and enjoy, and pretty much anything is time better spent than looking at porn.

 

[Blondie]

Hope everyone is enjoying their weekend, there’s a lot of great stuff in life worth doing. There’s so much to explore and learn and enjoy, and pretty much anything is time better spent than looking at porn.

Same to you man! Props for booking that appointment - big cojones right there.

Best to you.

 

[downhillfromhere]

Day 78

 

[GBS]

78 days is 11 weeks plus. Nearly three months. Consider how many hours within those 11 weeks that you would have acted out. It’s heroic. It’s an inspiration. It’s manly. It’s strong minded. It’s the start of something truly life changing.

You keep going and keep supporting us as we support you.

 

[downhillfromhere]

Thank you @GBS for those kind words! That made me feel proud of what I am doing, after a while it’s easy to get used to a new normal and just count the days. I will be sure to participate more on the forums, but lately I guess I have been putting all of this out of my head. Have had so many things to think about, especially these last couple of weeks.

Thanks again, to everyone who comments or likes my posts, it truly helps to know someone is listening.

 

[Blondie]

Thanks again, to everyone who comments or likes my posts, it truly helps to know someone is listening.

Thank you my man and for all your comments on my thread.

Keep doing you!

 

[downhillfromhere]

Day 79

 

[searching4good]

Almost at the big 8-0 @downhillfromhere - it's SO inspirational for someone like me who's at a comparatively early stage of their journey to see you knocking down the days with such consistency. Thank you for being such a pillar of the RN community!

 

[downhillfromhere]

Thanks so much @searching4good, that’s kind of you to say! I sort of feel like an impostor, that I’m not making enough effort to get this far… but I have been doing well the last weeks, and getting out of the habit of looking at porn and substitutes has just helped me create a new normal. But I know it could change quickly, so I’m not nearly done here. Thanks for your support, and keep up the good work!

 

[downhillfromhere]

Day 80

 

[Blondie]

Congrats @downhillfromhere !!

Day 80, proud of you man.

 

[downhillfromhere]

Thank you so much @Blondie! You’re always an inspiration, I’m just 300 days behind