downhillfromhere
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Day 13
Nice. I just ask cause I do a bit of music too. Very cool.Thanks! I think you found an old post there, it’s over a year later and I’m just at 13 days at the moment It sucks, but the number is no big deal. Just reminding myself that the fight itself is what matters, not necessarily how many days in a row we have accomplished at a given time.
That said, it’s inspiring to see how well many people around here are doing, achieving things I once thought would be impossible.
Well, I don’t really have a specific type of music I like to work on, but it’s a lot of rock, metal or jazz inspired things, and I also like to make some electronic music. Still trying to figure my way through the process and trying to spend more time doing it!
I think this is a good idea. This is still the reason why I spend so much time here, I just don't want to forget how important this is to me, and well, I often have and then ended up in the wrong place because of it. We have a tendency to forget, especially when we're real close to have done quite recently.I absolutely need to start spending more time on meditation and mindfulness throughout the day, and I'm going to set aside some time each day to read about porn addiction.
This is possible. I too sometimes wonder if that's the case for me. I guess I could look into it, but I've come this far in my life, so maybe it doesn't matter anymore. Do whatever you have to do.Basically just read or re-read anything I can find, because I tend to forget what I'm doing and why I'm doing it (I'm actually starting to seriously consider the possibility that I might have ADHD, and I think I might get it checked one day)
Thanks for the support Blondie! Yeah, I think for me it will be crucial to come back here as often as I can, just to keep reminding myself. I think I've overstated my ability to just figure this all out on my own, and obviously it isn't working. But yeah, I'm trying to look deeper in myself and ask why this keeps on happening. Appreciate the feedback!This is okay @downhillfromhere, we're all a work in progress. I can see you're really figuring out the deeper reasons why you go back to this stuff, and that is truly one of the keys to getting over it. I've said over and over again, that so much of this is a personal journey of discovery, and you have to figure out for yourself what it is you have to do. Obviously we're all somewhat the same, but we're also very different in why we continue to come back to this, even when we don't want to. Getting to the bottom of this, and really looking in the mirror and asking the tough questions, is how we get there.
I think this is a good idea. This is still the reason why I spend so much time here, I just don't want to forget how important this is to me, and well, I often have and then ended up in the wrong place because of it. We have a tendency to forget, especially when we're real close to have done quite recently.
This is possible. I too sometimes wonder if that's the case for me. I guess I could look into it, but I've come this far in my life, so maybe it doesn't matter anymore. Do whatever you have to do.
Best man.
Keep on fighting the good fight!
Thanks for sharing this @downhillfromhere. You know what? I've wrestled with this same problem for years on end, because I'm always trying to be "balanced" and never "extreme" on any end of discussions out there, and even pride myself on seeing the "other side of the argument", thus, this is one factor (out of many) that got me going back to it after sometime clean over the years. I eventually just had to make a rule for myself and only for myself, that no matter what anyone else thought about porn, as for me, it was just a no no and not an option. I was never able to be "balanced" with it, and thus, I needed a hard rule where I don't questioned it anymore or overanalyze it, and just follow the rule because it knows best.I'll make a habit out of being completely honest here, though. My thoughts on the negative effects of porn have been all over the place these past few months. I don't know if it's something I've read, it's certainly not difficult to find porn-positive articles and opinions out there. "Everything in moderation", I've thought to myself. Surely once in a while can't really hurt, it's just a matter of not going back to using it every day.
Good job!End of day update. Been listening to the Easy Peasy Method, and finding it pretty helpful so far. I started reading it last year but didn't get very far for some reason. Have not been feeling any urges today at all- or actually, the only urge arose just as I was writing this. Probably just because I was thinking about it, that's the way it works I guess.
Good tip, I think I’ll do the same. Was planning on a hike with my dog today!Good job!
Easy Peasy is an excellent listen. It's not a perfect 100% fix or anything, it just presents a new approach to the addiction. I found it to be very helpful in my battle.
Only like 4 hours too, if I remember correctly. I think I get more out of it when I exercise while I listen. I usually put in the headphones and go hiking with the dogs while I listen to it.
Awesome man!! That stuff is never worth it.I have been thinking a lot about a specific day late last year where my mood was just over the roof. I remember what I was doing for work, taking some photographs at a construction site and on the way back home I was actually smiling at strangers. Just genuinely being glad to see people, and wishing them well.
So I looked it up in my email and that day was pretty exactly on the 90-day mark of my streak last year. I think I ended up around 120 days free of porn. But it shows me what I’ve known all along, I become a lot more sociable, balanced and happy without the poison of porn.