Victory report: Tonight I got off of hard mode and the desire and craving to look at porn didn't come to me at all. I had no desire at all. Some of you know, especially those that follow my thread know that when I fail on hard mode I always end up with a relapse or 2. Well tonight, that didn't happen at all. Also, I was able to get an E without any fantasy at all. I can't even explain how truly happy I am right now. My mind is clear and I'm just full of honest and pure joy. I USED to be a porn user, but I feel like tonight is a major major step in healing, growth and yes, freedom. Also, not counting days has helped tremendously. I've been in flatline from day 1 to this evening when I began to feel better. Music also sounds better. Best version of myself here I come. Thank you all so much for your support. Porn will always lose in the end. I cannot wait to find someone that will love me back, because a screen never will. Love you all.
I can definitely concur. Same happens to me.It's amazing how the most boring activities are fun now since quitting porn. Making your bed, cleaning the kitchen or just listening to a song that you've already heard 1,000 times suddenly has so much joy and inner satisfaction in it. It's like I have a new view of reality.
Thank you @FreedomFromTheStruggle_11I also want to think @Beautiful1973 for posting her story.
Thank you pal. For sure was a slap right in the face. Just wish I could have felt the same when my friends had the same situation. The selfish part of my addicted self just wouldn't let it hit me hard enough.Nice job @FreedomFromTheStruggle_11.
Yes it's not very easy reading over there, but it's very necessary. Sometimes we need a slap in the face, and jolt of reality, and the truth will often do that to you.
It's wise as you said to fix yourself now, because you definitely don't want to bring any of this nonsense into your relationships.
Keep fighting the fight brother!
Well, don't beat yourself up about it too much. I've been there, probably still am in some regards. The fact of the matter is, you can't shame yourself out of this habit. You can't do it for a woman (or a future woman!) nor for God (I tried!) or for how bad the industry treats women and men. At the end of the day, you can only do it for yourself. I've tried all those things, which are all good by the way, but it never worked, because I wasn't doing it for myself.Just wish I could have felt the same when my friends had the same situation. The selfish part of my addicted self just wouldn't let it hit me hard enough.