, it's times like this where it blows your mind that you can still be so tempted, or even just the thought of thinking about it is insane. I've found on my journey so far, it's moments like this where I saw a real big change following the days or week after, you just got to stick it out. I can promise you It does get better and better as you move along but hell, I still get those little thoughts once in a while, and that pisses me off.
As you've mentioned, you've got years of doing this habit repeatedly, what does 10 months or 520 days clean have on that number? It's definitely something, and it's a great achievement, but it's just the beginning. That's why committing to this 100% and for the long run is the really the only option to see some real lifelong changes.
As for myself, I'm thinking at two years I will be out of the danger zone. I agree with that chart, at one year you're definitely getting there, but there's still room to fuck up, just look at me, I'm living proof of that!
Best brother, you CAN get through this.