neon tiger
Active Member
Funny, today the situation with blast from the past feels so distant emotionally. And chief, Ive been wondering the same things. In fact, i have little doubt that he in fact has his own issues with sex/porn addiction. He is quite clear and explicit about his motives. I am so grateful for you guys here keeping me on track. This was a trigger of giant proportions.
Chief, i have envisioned vulnerability the exact same way you just did- like i was skinned and exposed to any harm that surrounds me. I trust and value your point of view, because i know your journey and your struggles, and i know that for you this journey of healing is about so much more than getting boners back- as it is for me. Thank you, and please dont hesitate to join me on my walks through my mental neighborhood, or my 'committee/amphitheater' meetings
Today was an awesome day! In the zone at work, connecting with my staff, and peers, being creative, effective. It was awesome. I am realizing how big of an impact sleep has on my day. This is a piece that i was greatly compromising while on PMO, because my acting out was mostly just before bedtime, so i was loosing 60-90 minutes of sleep every night. Now, not only i don't lose that sleep, but i am also going to bed an average 1 hour earlier. Yesterday i felt fearful, worried, a little hopeless; turns out, i had a very restless sleep the night before (the night after blast from the past sexted me). Last night i slept very well ,and today i felt very god. I never considered myself someone that has trouble with sleep, but I am rediscovering sleep as this powerful, energizing activity. When PMOing, i would fall asleep with images of porn in my mind, and wake up with them. I hated that.
Thank you ready- and welcome. I have found on this forum that strength that i never found in myself.
Speaking of sleep, bedtime now. Thank you all, my fellow warriors.
Chief, i have envisioned vulnerability the exact same way you just did- like i was skinned and exposed to any harm that surrounds me. I trust and value your point of view, because i know your journey and your struggles, and i know that for you this journey of healing is about so much more than getting boners back- as it is for me. Thank you, and please dont hesitate to join me on my walks through my mental neighborhood, or my 'committee/amphitheater' meetings
Today was an awesome day! In the zone at work, connecting with my staff, and peers, being creative, effective. It was awesome. I am realizing how big of an impact sleep has on my day. This is a piece that i was greatly compromising while on PMO, because my acting out was mostly just before bedtime, so i was loosing 60-90 minutes of sleep every night. Now, not only i don't lose that sleep, but i am also going to bed an average 1 hour earlier. Yesterday i felt fearful, worried, a little hopeless; turns out, i had a very restless sleep the night before (the night after blast from the past sexted me). Last night i slept very well ,and today i felt very god. I never considered myself someone that has trouble with sleep, but I am rediscovering sleep as this powerful, energizing activity. When PMOing, i would fall asleep with images of porn in my mind, and wake up with them. I hated that.
Thank you ready- and welcome. I have found on this forum that strength that i never found in myself.
Speaking of sleep, bedtime now. Thank you all, my fellow warriors.