the_badger
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DAY 19
on my journey to being true to myself and unlocking my potential
I have not been posting as often as I planned. But the reboot is going well! I have not had many urges the last days and finally my mood improved a bit. Not yet in a stable good mood, but I have quite good and positive moments. And also in between my faith in a better future returned. Motivation is slowly coming back I think.
But I have to be super vigilant. This is up to now my "cleanest" reboot ever. Without any peeking at porn or nude images and without indulging in fantasy. Of course there are thoughts about sex and porn from time to time. But I let them arise, be there for two minutes or three and then they fade again as I don't actively "deepen" them. But right now for the first time I feel like "I can do this even in hard mode - It's not too hard after all". I know from experience that this is a dangerous moment.
On my strategy and goals:
I kept doing my daily mediation. That's the most important thing. I do also put effort in socializing and meeting friends. Considering the rest - reducing screen time and social media, working out and stop snoozing - I didn't improve at all. But that's ok. You can't change everything at once. I will try to work on that in the upcoming weeks.
See you tomorrow!
on my journey to being true to myself and unlocking my potential
I have not been posting as often as I planned. But the reboot is going well! I have not had many urges the last days and finally my mood improved a bit. Not yet in a stable good mood, but I have quite good and positive moments. And also in between my faith in a better future returned. Motivation is slowly coming back I think.
But I have to be super vigilant. This is up to now my "cleanest" reboot ever. Without any peeking at porn or nude images and without indulging in fantasy. Of course there are thoughts about sex and porn from time to time. But I let them arise, be there for two minutes or three and then they fade again as I don't actively "deepen" them. But right now for the first time I feel like "I can do this even in hard mode - It's not too hard after all". I know from experience that this is a dangerous moment.
On my strategy and goals:
I kept doing my daily mediation. That's the most important thing. I do also put effort in socializing and meeting friends. Considering the rest - reducing screen time and social media, working out and stop snoozing - I didn't improve at all. But that's ok. You can't change everything at once. I will try to work on that in the upcoming weeks.
See you tomorrow!