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dwenjang1218

dwenjang1218

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Day 14 no PMO:

Forget what I said about how flaccid my penis was yesterday.
Today was quite different again.
Hardness went up to 90% a few times during today and 95% yesterday night.
Sleep was okay. Had to split my sleeping sessions just like last time. Last night was a little difficult, but manageable.
Urges were plenty. Something in my brain clicked yesterday night while I was trying to fend off my sexual fantasies.
I couldn't stop myself from staring at girls' asses today.
I think it's like a mini Chaser Effect. Whenever I have trouble at night, I also seem to have trouble the following day.
Mood- better. Because internet works now.

Are these urge-swings natural? One day I feel like flatlining and the next day I'm getting boners left and right...
Fortunately, these urges are low-level. I don't think I'll have any problems for the next few days at least.
I'll end it here today.
Have a crazy day guys!
 
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Hey V, Mr. Heisenberg avatar.  :p

Going back and forth seems to be pretty normal as far as I know. I think it's a sign of your brain trying to rewire itself.
 
dwenjang1218

dwenjang1218

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Cool. Good to know that my urge-swings are normal.
I imagine it will even out further through reboot.

CrazyGopher said:
Have you considered using red light at night? It might be helpful for you.
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CrazyGopher,
WHAT IS THIS WIZARDRY!??
I am shocked I never found this out myself.
Truth is, I had insomnia for about 8 years now (almost as bad as what I'm experiencing these days... but not quite)
Now I'm very convinced that this is the exact thing I need to get my sleep back! I'm always on a computer!
When I get back to Canada in 5 days, I'm definitely gonna buy me a pair of Blue-light-blocking sunglasses to wear at night.
You are a lifesaver man, first the PMO tracker, and now this.
Will definitely update what happens once I get my hands on them in about a week.
 
dwenjang1218

dwenjang1218

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Day 16 no PMO:

It's nice to know that I'm past half-point to one month mark.
Yesterday night was a bit troublesome, had erections over 90% hardness during my half-assed sleep.
Today, not so much. Looks like my urges are coming down a little bit.
My mood is average. maybe a 6 out of 10.
I went to karaoke and it always hits the spot for me. Such a stress-reliever. Probably the best one I got.

Soon I'll experience a huge change in my lifestyle.
I've been living in Korea for a year and a half now,
and I'll be returning to my country, Canada, in 4 days to live with my dad and my bro.
(Korea is my country of origin, immigrated to Canada when I was 12. Now I'm a Canadian citizen).
I don't usually stress over moving, since I moved about once every year during the last 10 years,
so I'm probably going to be fine in terms of no PMO.
What I'm stressed about is the people I have to say goodbye to,
and the people I'm going to have to meet there.

Anyways, I will update soon.
Have an awesome day guys!

 
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drd

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Just want to stop by and tell you that I'll be following your progress :)
It's very motivating to see how rebooting is working for people. Congrats on your 16th day with no PMO
 
dwenjang1218

dwenjang1218

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Day 19 no PMO:

I don't think I'll be logging on in the next ~60 hours. Maybe longer.
As I've said before, I'm moving in with my dad and bro in Canada.
Plane leaves tmr, so I'm packing up today.

***Alert! Depression rant***
I feel like my life has gone down a shit-hole because of my family financial problems.
The depression could be from the withdrawal effect, I don't know.
But moving to Canada means a lot more than just changing addresses to me.
I'm gonna go to karaoke later to relieve some stress.
*** End of rant ***

Anyways, I'm not having much PMO problems recently.
Yesterday night I proved to myself once again that alcohol goes really well with reboot.
Had fantastic sleep (finally). Not long, but very deep. Average morning wood. No night/morning cravings.
Erections are still working fine out on the streets, though.

Well, I'm off to Canada tmr.
Wish you guys a fantastic week!
 
dwenjang1218

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Day 23 no PMO:

I've settled in my new house, and have been busy sorting stuff out for my new life in Canada.
The flight was torturous.
One of the stewardesses was smoking hot, I just couldn't take my eyes off her.
I really struggled to not masturbate on the plane. I was rock hard.

The cravings have stayed even after the flight.
The first night was bearable since I was so tired I dropped dead onto my bed.
Last night cravings were unbearable. Morning as well. I managed to sleep, though.
Nowadays my erection is at 100%. It sometimes reaches even more than that-
A kind of erection that only came to me once a year before reboot.
It's really difficult to try to control these erections. I hope I reach flatline again.

My mind is too overloaded to try to decide on my mood.
I'll update in the near future.
 
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Hey VforVictory,

if you're in Quebec send me a PM, we could go for a beer sometime :p That said, good job for 23 days of no PMO. In theory it takes 21 days to form a new habit, so one could say you made it through the hardest part! (Of course never let your guard down, I failed the No PMO challenge after over a 100 days of being clean then it went downhill frequency wise, and I am back on track to a PMO free life)

May the force be with you,
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dwenjang1218

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Thanks for the encouragement guys!

xc43 said:
if you're in Quebec send me a PM, we could go for a beer sometime :p
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Aw man I would love too, except I'm on the other side of Canada- Vancouver!
 
dwenjang1218

dwenjang1218

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Day 25 no PMO:

Only 5 days left until my goal (and 7 days to complete April Challenge).
Fortunately, I've hit flatline again, so no more cravings for a while.
My sleep was fantastic the past two days- 7~8 hours a day, right on schedule.

Only thing I need to watch out for is the girls in the gym.
I've signed up for a new gym in my town- it's big and new,
and the girls there look amazing.
The guys are fricking well-built as well, which kinda scares me.

My mood is getting better and better
and I'm getting used to my new lifestyle.
I hope u guys have a beautiful day!
 
iwillprevail

iwillprevail

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Hey V, Its nice to see youre about to reach your goal, congratulations :) .. about the peanut butter, i switched to almond butter and i found a decrease in my headaches.. i complement it with a nice peppermint and chamomile tea to soothe the nerves..
 
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Shaft

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How many 'flatlines' have you already had? After all, I'm just wondering, whether a flatline (having no libido) actually would be a normal thing for a man who doesn't have PIED or any other related disorders. Let's say, one just doesn't engage in any visual stimulation and his partner moves to a business trip for a month. Would that man fall into a flatiline? Just a thought.
 
dwenjang1218

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iwillprevail said:
Hey V, Its nice to see youre about to reach your goal, congratulations :) .. about the peanut butter, i switched to almond butter and i found a decrease in my headaches.. i complement it with a nice peppermint and chamomile tea to soothe the nerves..
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Almond butter? That sounds healthy AND delicious!
Never tried it though, cuz my meals are a bit... primitive.
I just go for most unprocessed, cheapest, largest, most protein/mineral-filled foods lol.
 
dwenjang1218

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Shaft said:
How many 'flatlines' have you already had? After all, I'm just wondering, whether a flatline (having no libido) actually would be a normal thing for a man who doesn't have PIED or any other related disorders. Let's say, one just doesn't engage in any visual stimulation and his partner moves to a business trip for a month. Would that man fall into a flatiline? Just a thought.
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Good question.
I was heavily addicted to porn (but I stopped myself from developing fetishes),
and I had a a slight ED (when I masturbate for too long and take my eyes off the porn, I would lose my erection).
I guess I experienced about 4~5 flatline periods so far.

In regards to the business trip question, I would venture to say yes,
because I'm assuming the man is "addicted" to sex ("used to" might be the better phrase).
He would feel some kind of a withdrawal symptom when there's a sudden stop.
But very slight symptoms, I suppose, depending on how long he had been "addicted".
 
dwenjang1218

dwenjang1218

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Day 27 no PMO:

Having a fantastic day.
Not many urges the past two days.
Having great sleeps as well. Late night erection + morning wood (70% hard) still bothers me,
but not as much as before. I guess I'm still in flatline- it's weird because my mood is great.
I guess mood and libido don't overlap as much as I had thought.
Workout feels great, and I'm getting things done at a very efficient pace.

Here are a few notable incidents that I've come across lately:
  • I watched an uncensored music video featuring topless super models.
    I kind of just returned to my old self and played it without hesitation.
    However, I could control both my erection and my urge.
    I watched it halfway about 3~4 days ago, and I don't have any chaser effect.
    I'm not doing that again any time soon, though.
  • I had a dream about watching porn. It was very interesting to say the least.
    I was also MO'ing in my dream, but no wet dream.
    I guess my sleep is not deep enough for me to have a wet dream.

There you have it!
I'm on a roll and I hope it lasts long.
Have a nice day guys!
 
dwenjang1218

dwenjang1218

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Day 29 no PMO:

I was kinda busy partying with my closest friends these past few days.
Threw me off my sleeping pattern,
but at the same time, I didn't have any time to think about women.
My mood is so-so and my erections are shrinking- Morning wood was at ~50% today.
Very few spontaneous erections, also low urges.

Doesn't look like I'm going to get an urge anytime soon,
so it's probably safe to say I've completed my 30 day goal  8).
I was thinking of MO'ing once or twice after my goal and then restarting my counter,
but I'm going to take advantage of my flatline and continue without fapping.
My next goal is 50 days no PMO.

Wish me luck
and have a brilliant day!
 
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