Yes dude, absolutely NOTHING good about fapping or porn. I was downloading some music and i saw some sexy advertising and i felt that old negative pull, and i remenber how porn is fucking
evil and just want to keep you in that dark dark place.
self-pity, self-doubt, fuck it your brain is against you, do not listen to the negative tape, do not try to replace it by a positive one (it will just exhaust you), no just don't do it, don't fap. what i mean ? you got that urge, you just go running ; you don't think twice. 2 am, 3 am fuck it go running. still tempted ? cold shower . still excited ? push-ups. still not ready to go to sleep ? do
something. 5 am and exhausted you go to bed. you wake up and you don't fucking believe what you have just achieved, how tough and strong you've been that night. and here i promise you, you won't relapse because of what you get trough during this night (i got 2-3 night like that 2 years ago during my reboot, will NEVER forget those) and how your character has grown during this night.
an advice : do not wait to find your inner strenght or whatever, you will find it when you will battle your urge. first of all you might never find what you are looking for. and, there will never be the perfect time, the perfect moment to start nofap. and there is no better moment than right now to do a good action and make a good decision for your future.
you don't have to wait, you don't have to wait to hit rock bottom, or to hear your higher self tell you "time to stop right now!", you don't need to have a epiphany, you don't need to feel 100% commited for life, no. you can do it one day at a time, and do not think about this or that just focus on not fapping and finding healthy substitutes. and then you will wake up and it will be 21 day and you will chock yourself on how far you have been and you will realize :
"fuck i don't want to kill all my effort on this fucking pixels fuck it fuck it i keep going, life is better, i'm a better man, lets go"
also, all the inner qualities, strenght, commitment and just your true self will reveal themselves during your battle.
also, (last post on my journal), you got to become excited about your life. not excited as a result of hype circomstances or events, no. its about changing your mind and the way you look at thing. life is fucking epic if we want to. its just about getting control of your state and choosing to see the good and the exicting side, or even creating it, in everything in life. boredom, lack of meaning, or bad feelings will be way way better to handle with this.
keep the motivation and don't wait to start nofap, do it now !
we are counting on you, you are counting on you, your gf too i guess. so choose to say no to porn
peace my friend be strong