zander13 said:Stick with it man. I'm sorry about the relapse. Wish I could help you more than this.
God speed sir.
Jeks said:Its shit man.
As a new idea i strongly recommend you to try grabbing and hugging a pillow next time and try to not let go of it, when cravings are strong. Maybe, if you feel confident, watch a video about music theory while doing it. If its too much of a risk for you to go on the internet, maybe you can find another way to distract yourself.
I swear, i think it really worth it to try this method. It gave me much more confidence in grinding out the urges, because i knew, when i am just holding on to this pillow, absolutely nothing can happen. Thats all i have to focus on. I do that as long as i feel like in the danger zone. I can just think of all the reasons why i wanna quit porn and just not let go of the pillow.
The idea came me i think when i saw this scene of dr. House
https://youtu.be/3JtW-wFkf3A
(By the way dr. House is not reboot friendly, but the scene is)
Even if its just a tv show, as you can see they had to lock this man up in his cell and even tie him up.
Since i could not lock myself like this, the next best thing i cluld think of was the idea with the pillow and it really helped me.
Its definitely worth a try.
k-fff said:I am okay. Just severely depressed, the type of situation that caused the relapses is just horrible and I just feel loads of guilt. I don't want to give myself excuses because I feel like when things are this bad it is the most important time not to relapse. I just really wish a lot of things didn't happen. My only focus is getting back on the horse right now because I know how bad my dopamine system is when every girl I have been with in the past two years says I am extremely cold. It is the truth I am cold because I don't feel it and I don't feel it because that part of my brain is messed up. I don't know how long it is gonna take to get that part of my emotions normal again. I am so numb because of the use.
escapeandnevercomeback said:k-fff said:I am okay. Just severely depressed, the type of situation that caused the relapses is just horrible and I just feel loads of guilt. I don't want to give myself excuses because I feel like when things are this bad it is the most important time not to relapse. I just really wish a lot of things didn't happen. My only focus is getting back on the horse right now because I know how bad my dopamine system is when every girl I have been with in the past two years says I am extremely cold. It is the truth I am cold because I don't feel it and I don't feel it because that part of my brain is messed up. I don't know how long it is gonna take to get that part of my emotions normal again. I am so numb because of the use.
Dopamine is involved in some things in our brain and we fuck it up with porn, of course we pay the price. I tried to remember the misery and the great times that dopamine abstinence gave me but none helped me not relapse. Now I'm trying to follow a simple rule: Avoid everything that gives me a porn induced dopamine release. But, obviously, this shit is hard. Denying myself this amazing dopamine from porn made me irritated, angry and depressed. What I'm doing to myself is masochistic in a way, if you ask me, but it's probably the only situation in my life when "hurting" myself for a while will give me my life back in the end.