Doing things differently this time

Qwertyxyz

Active Member
Day 49 PMO free
7 weeks 🎉🪴

Being free from porn is great but I still have my battles in life and recovery. Being porn sober gives me the ability to grow and change though, when I was lost in porn I could mostly only distract. I have much more hope, happiness and confidence today.

It’s been so nice to explore places around me and experience things differently, porn steals so much from us. I’m going to listen to a recovery podcast or two today, sometimes I need to remind myself how bad it was for me and that I still need to take things seriously.

Good luck all ☀️
 

Qwertyxyz

Active Member
Day 51 PMO free

I’m on the way home from a couple of nights camping. It’s been really good for me, I feel more mellow and calm, my perspective is better.

I’ve done some reflecting on my inner child type of stuff and it’s been kind of powerful. I spent my childhood in mass anxiety and it’s helpful to see it’s effect on me and know what triggers me.

I’m looking forward to getting home now. Feeling pretty good 🙂
 

Qwertyxyz

Active Member
Day 52 PMO free

It’s just so nice to know that porn isn’t in my life right now, a time I think about it but I try to distract quickly, I’m not perfect at this but I am improving.

my anxiety is better and above all I feel a potential for growth within myself that I had completely lost through seeking comfort in porn. I have a lot of healing to do but I am healing and that is great.

Stay strong all 👍
 

Qwertyxyz

Active Member
Day 53 PMO free

I realised this morning how much porn took from my self awareness, I remember times where I was very introspective and had a lot of light bulb moments where I learned something about what makes me tick. As my porn/MO got worse I would still often journal but I stopped having insights and just distracted myself instead.

I’m starting to get that sense of self awareness back and it is very nice. Porn took away my sense of awareness, power and control in my life.

I don’t advertise that I’m in porn recovery but I’m not actually that worried about people finding out. I was deeply secretive about my porn use but now aren’t super fazed if people know that I’m in recovery. If I use again I know the shame will come right back.

Recovery is good, I still have a lot of healing to do but I feel that I can actually do it today.
 

Qwertyxyz

Active Member
Day 54 PMO free

Doing alright, I think I feel a little flatline but I also feel content. Counting the days reminds me to be patient, the last 7 years I’ve lived alone and there has been no checks on my porn use, I would celebrate one day away from porn if I could do it. My brain has a lot of heavy use to recover from and it will take time.

I am progressing through and it’s great. I have checked myself of the intrusive porn style fantasies that I get (mostly in the morning) and while they are comforting they are damaging me and hurt my recovery. I am feeling more pleasure from non porn stuff which is nice and there is an anxiety that has relaxed.

Be kind to yourselves out there 👍
 

Qwertyxyz

Active Member
55 days PMO free

I’m seeing how much anxiety I cause myself. I need to be much more moderated and sensible in how I live my life. When I’m wiped out I have more urges and I don’t like that. I’m understanding my triggers a lot more and taking better care of myself.

Happily porn sober and looking forward to get 60 days of recovery up.
 

Qwertyxyz

Active Member
Day 56 PMO free

feeling alright today, I was pretty flat yesterday, a little depressed I think. Change takes time and I’m doing my best to build good habits. I feel like I’m doing well but there is a lot from the past for me to work through.

Back to work on Thursday, i fee positive about it 👍
 

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Day 56 PMO free

feeling alright today, I was pretty flat yesterday, a little depressed I think. Change takes time and I’m doing my best to build good habits. I feel like I’m doing well but there is a lot from the past for me to work through.

Back to work on Thursday, i fee positive about it 👍
Unfortunately, recovery is not linear. This means you will have ups and downs, and that they are normal. Welcome to life.
 
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