Recent content by Lauralou82

Hi ladies.... I'm really struggling today. OH of nearly 2 years has started withdrawing. Yes he used before we got together,  yes he knows I have issues and porn/datingsites/cam sites are deal breakers for me - he says he hasn't since we got together but that was a while ago he said that now

So... 2 years on from my PA EX and coming up to a year with my partner. How to deal with the baggage and residue! So my laptop has packed up a d partner has left his here... previously I'd saved some of my mams account information on there and obviously went to the usual places to try and...

Hey... I've come back today just to let you ladies know all is well. I'm now with a partner who understands the impact of my previous relationship and I think he genuinely does love me... it's so nice to have a shared sex life with him too! I can still flashback and get a bit in my head but I'd...

I'm not sure where to begin on this topic but I know there's a connection. Paranoia - if you're disgusted by yourself and do not like yourself (because people always know when they're harming others no matter how they self-justify... Regardless if it's betraying a partner for pixels or any other...

Hi ladies. I haven't posted in a while - firstly that troll put me off and secondly I needed a bit of processing time as I needed to deal with my cptsd responses to the situation. My partner swears he hasn't PMOd or MOd since D-day a couple of days be for new year. After a couple of weeks...

Some of you will have read my previous posts but a quick re-cap. My partner has has ED and DE that was apparent to me from about a month into our relationship ( the DE from the beginning - you can't help but notice someone hammering into you without being present and just trying to cum) I...

Really struggling today ladies. My stupid brain has decided to start torturing me with flashbacks.. Images of my partner staring off into the distance whenever I performed oral - I now know why. I now understand the why it was the only thing I could offer him and why he used to ALWAYS request...

Has anyone else's partner gone full Gollum with his pecker after d-day? Honestly for the past fortnight his hands are constantly down his underpants! It's getting to the point where I'm worried it's going to become a subconscious thing so I'm going to have to say something in case he starts...

Well I seem to have got a loose grip on my thoughts now - probably due to a) constant vigilance over rewiring progress against CPTSD. b) 4 years of counselling/psychotherapy study. c) my partner is being slightly more open each time we talk (there is still the massive attack in defense hurdle...

So on top of my idiot other half not yet being able to see he's not only wired himself up to have a separate sex life all on his own. I now have to deal with the "it's not cheating" hurdle! "Every guy does it so are they all cheating" rem well not every guy replaces their partner with it, it...

A little aside from my initial post... Another partner with comparable trauma issues mentioned contemplating plastic surgery obviously trying to a) garner the attention she was lacking from her partner b)feel better about herself. This got me thinking.... In the 8 months of being oblivious to...

Hi, I'm 34 and have been living with my partner (32) for about 14 months. I noticed his ED and lack of morning erections pretty quickly... I was so worried about his health - he had me thinking it was performance, sleep apnea, abusive ex's but I eventually showed him an article about "death...