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So over the past week i have been hooking up with a woman i know, shes married, and has kids. We generally always hook up after drinks, i dont know if its the thrill of the chase or what but it had always been after alcohol. It was always fun and kind of living out a fantasy. So i met her one...

Hi All ;)   I have my own reboot journal here, but what I've been thinking about lately is the impact porn addiction has on the body. Is there any articles or info on this? From my own experience of being porn free, I become more muscular, less belly fat, more body hair, I don't get this...

Hi All. I've been here before, I thought I had this beat and WHAM. Anyway today is rock bottom. I feel like a fraud, I am a fraud. I don't know who I am anymore.

"I can't do this anymore" this is my head today. Rock bottom....maybe.   I've never really given much time  to thinking about what negative affects porn has had on me, I just spent all my time thinking about smut.   But today I feel broke, and I'm hurting. I want this to end. The negative...

Triggers... Well what can I say, I am a living relapse. I've had some success rebooting and it 100% works if you commit and give yourself time to heal. I had healed a great deal, but I slowly slipped and I'm back at square one and a year older. What i have found us that the novelty is...

Surely they all can't be out to get me? Is there anyone on this fn planet that I can trust? Can anyone help me?? These are just some thoughts I have atm. Porn has engulfed my life and slowly but surely I have hit the pavement face first. I'm a greedy pig. Let's be honest. My problem is that...

Hi All, I had a journal on here, but it's been awhile and maybe it's better to let sleeping dogs lie and all that. But, I'll cut to the chase, I'm consume by porn. I can go for a day or two here and there clean and feel awesome, binge on porn and plummet in to hell on earth. It's the only way...

Hi All. I've been on here before, obviously back for more but, I basically went 6-months with a minor relapse and it felt fantastic, but I fell one moment fapping to porn seemed like a great idea and I ended up on a slippery side to rock bottom. I'm on my third or fourth day without porn. In...

I'm sick of living the porn lie, so I'll be as honest as I can be with my journal. BTW i'm 5-days clean. To everyone else I guess for the last 5-days I have looked the same, although inside I have been high, low and went through every emotion known to man. I'very been in an epic battle. I...

So the titles a tad long winded and i'm probably in the wrong place but anyone have any ideas on caffeine allergy and sexual urges caused by toxicity? I have asked about caffeine and dopamine before but I think that if your allergic to caffeine there is more going on. I'm reading a book by...

I'm on day 7 of my latest reboot attempt. The last few months have been a blur, i've either been using or waiting to use. I went for a walk yesterday, and I thought to myself "this is an internal fight, nobody knows what i'm going through." It's tough pretending to be happy while inside your...

This may be a thick question, but i'll ask it anyway. I'm a coffee addict, and a porn addict, so i'm really a dopamine addict, right? if I get my dopamine fix from coffee, generally  800mg per day) am I impeding my reboot in anyway? Must I not be addicted to dopamine at all?

So i'd just like some thoughts on my reboot process. Here's the progress so far: Two-months about before I began another reboot attempt, I was hooked, pmo everyday, edge for 2-3 hours before ejaculation, never had morning wood. So two-months later, morning wood from around day 50, before that...

HI, So I have a slight numb feeling behind my forehead. My willpower seems to be awesome, and i'm 60-days in. Is this headache a sign of healing? Cheers

Hi All, Quick question - i've been in hard mode for 50-days, the first two-weeks were full of urges and then I went into a flatline for five-weeks but over the last few days i've started having morning wood, feeling good and major cravings. I'm concerned about these cravings, it feels like my...

Hi All, My reboot is going pretty good, 32-days in, but what's killing me is this crippling insomnia, I haven'y had a good nights sleep in months, I toss and turn all night and I'm exhausted come morning. Can anyone offer advice or did anyone have this and get over it? CHeers

So I had a thread up on here about trying to reboot, but I relapsed as such and i just need a clean start so this is it. I havemt pmo in 24hrs, and I'm delighted to be honest, I had lost all control with porn and it really had taken over me. At the moment I'm feeling the brain fog, and i can...

Hi All, I'm 55-days into a reboot. I was on the edge last night, I nearly caved, but what saved the day was I stumbled across a movie on netflix called Don Jon. It's a movie about a porn addict. I saw so much of myself in this movie (the twisted logic of a porn addict) but watching it helped...

So i failed. PMO after 8-days. Why? because i'm an addict. Those 8-days were something else tho'. The first 4, terrible, all the classic w/drawal symptoms. The last 4, great, ran a 10k race in under an hour, an odd feeling of happiness returned, things were looking up. Then yesterday, my...

Hi All, Ne1 every have dilated pupils while rebooting? I look like I've taken something!