jonazo91
Active Member
Very, very friggin close call tonight. For a while, I was determined to look at porn tonight. My phone died right as I was ready to find some material. And then, I pulled out my other phone (provided to me by my work). I'm not quite stupid enough to look at actual porn on it, but I trolled around youtube looking for something to trigger me as I took the dog out for a late walk. Somehow luckily, nothing's really doing it for me (although trust me, not for lack of genuine trying). I get back to the house and open up my computer, and I'm right there, ready with a porn site, the only thing in my way is the "Are you 18?" page. And somehow I make my way to this forum, just to buy some time. I don't know what to chalk it up to. I ought to throw God some thanks. I still feel silly, and a little embarrassed with myself. I did PMO just yesterday (1 time this week). And I willfully seeked out Yellow-light material tonight in an effort to trigger myself. But for now, I can get to bed without PMO and I am thankful for that. I just have to be vigilant now because I can feel myself being weak.
PMO last week (starting Sunday): 6
PMO this week (starting Sunday): 1
Current streak: 1 day
PMO last week (starting Sunday): 6
PMO this week (starting Sunday): 1
Current streak: 1 day